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Poetry, 2001
LIKE A ROAD THAT NEVER ENDS
42001012321 - ©2001 WLL
Like a road that never ends,
Our lives stretch out before our eyes.
Twists and turns will help us steer
Away from hatred and from lies.
Down this road of Life I walk,
Learning as I go along.
The road goes on into the Sun
Reminding me of when I'm wrong.
And if I ever lose my way,
The rising Sun shall lead me on,
And not allow me to give up
Until the road is gone.
Like a road that never ends,
My life will stretch before my eyes.
Twists and turns will help me steer
Away from hatred and from lies.
Once the sky was dark and gray
And now the storm has gone.
The road was endless and yet at times
I realized I had to go on.
Then I came upon the end
Of the road I knew was wrong
And began another I know is right
And it doesn't seem as long.
Like a road that never ends,
My life has stretched before my eyes.
Twists and turns have helped me steer
Away from hatred and from lies.
A new day dawns and with it a life,
For somewhere a mother has given birth.
Her daughter will know nothing but hate,
Yet somehow her soul will rise from the earth.
And a son is born to someone else
Who doesn't know what to do.
She mourns for him and gives him up
And hopes he'll know her heart was true.
Each life is different and yet the same,
For every person can find their way.
Every night the sun will set,
Only to start another day.
Like a road the never ends,
Our lives have stretched before our eyes.
Twists and turns have helped us steer
Away from hatred and from lies.
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WINDOWS
42001022241 - ©2001 WLL
Gaze into the window
At the lights within
A darkened room
A single light
Burning 'til the dawn
The flame goes out
Another lights
The window right next door
Gaze into this and find yourself
Mesmerized
Like a little fawn
About to be run over
Sees the headlights
Trusts too much
And then it is all over
Some are cloudy
Others are clear
Many are swirled
While some are feared
But few are able to see
The windows across the way
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NIGHT SHADOWS
42001030621 - ©2001 WLL
In the shadows of Night I'm lost
Waiting for the chance to be found
Is someone here to rescue me?
I wonder as I look around.
Your voice I heard in the depths of the night's rain
I call your name in the dark of the Night
You call to me but I don't hear you
Then I saw you, bathed in light.
Arms outstretched, you take me home
With love inside I've never known.
Despite the hurt, the anger and rage
Never again will you leave me alone.
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THE FLAME BURNS LOW
42001031871 - ©2001 WLL
A candle was lit
Burned bright in the doom
Casting its warmth
All over the room
Sometimes it flickered
But always burned bright
Even through storms,
It gave off its light.
Now it dwindles down below
The golden rim that holds it
Soon the flame will be extinguished
And in the wax will lie the wick.
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COUNTRY 'N' CRAP
42001041021 - ©2001 WLL
Everybody likes
A different type of music
But what I have to listen to
Well I'm just about to lose it
Banging on the wall
Screaming in my ear
Rattling all the windows
Noise so very near
Ready to explode
Is about the place I'm at
I don't care what you call it
I think it's Country 'N' Crap
People in this town
Love Country don't you see
The ones who don't, like Rap
And both so grate on me
Not the Country I'm used to;
Oh, no, it's achy breaky stuff
Rap sucks even worse you see
And I've heard both enough!
Call it what you like
I say it's Country 'N' Crap
That awful boring Country stuff
And that crap they've titled "rap"
Throw 'em out the window
Get rid of every one
Which doesn't strike a chord in me!
And with that said, I'm done.
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FINAL MOMENTS
42001042161 - ©2001 WLL
Looking out the window glass
I see the dew upon the grass
Frost had made the whole ground heave
But now the buds turn into leaves
Spring has sprung, or so they say
But that won't mean you're not away
Beauty rings so very true
I only wish I could see you
Close my eyes, hold my breath
Love despite unwanted death
Goes on and on while I'm asleep
This love for you is very deep
I hope we meet again sometime
So many times I want to die
Just so I can be with you
Run in meadows like you do
Final moments laid to rest
No longer will you touch my chest
But in my heart you know you'll stay
Deep within my soul you'll lay
Close my eyes, hold my breath
Love despite unwanted death
Goes on and on while I'm asleep
This love for you is very deep
Close my eyes, hold my breath
Love despite unwanted death
Goes on and on while I'm asleep
This love for you is always deep
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PICTURE ON THE WALL
42001042162 - ©2001 WLL
Many nights I dream of you
Wishing you could feel it, too
But daylight hits me, I'm awake
Another day I cannot take
See your picture hanging there
Enjoy the image of your hair
Feathered back, your gorgeous face
Calls to me from another place
But I know I can't have you
In my life like others do
I hear you now, I hear your call
You're just a picture on the wall
Many times I feel your touch
Only because I want so much
To have you here and holding me
Yet I know that cannot be
Look at you within the frame
Staring back with zero shame
Just a look I've loved so long
How could a love exist that's wrong?
But I know I can't have you
In my life like others do
I hear you now, I hear your call
You're just a picture on the wall
I know I cannot have you here
I know I'll never hold you dear
Fading away, I hear your call
Just like the picture on the wall
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OFF IN A CORNER
42001042271 - ©2001 WLL
Wind outside
Stinging rain
Darkness falls
Hides the pain
Young boy falters
Flees in vain
On the tracks
A moving train
Whistle blows
He knows too well
He cannot jump
For he can't tell
How deep it is
Oh, this is hell
Couldn't get worse
Unless he fell
On he runs
To get away
Wishes he
Were in some play
Or in a dream
This is not day
He could be dreaming
It'll be okay
Screams, the train
Moves on ahead
He tried to run
He really fled
But soon the tracks
Would be his bed
Crumpled heap
The boy is dead
Off in a corner
He used to play
Times got rough
He hated day
So out he went
To find his way
Now on the tracks
His body lay
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MIRAGES
42001072971 - ©2001 WLL
Far away I see you
Waving with a solemn smile
I'm looking for a path to you
All I see is yellow tile
Before me lies a road
It stretches far ahead
The road behind is crumbling
My sanity has fled
The only way is forward now
Beneath the blazing sun
Now and then a mirage appears
Taunting me with a taste of fun
Far away I see you
Waving with a solemn smile
I walk faster, try hard to catch up
But every step just adds a mile
Soon you're just a sad mirage
Disappearing from my sight
All I remember of you now
Is your fading trail of light
I call your name without a voice
Even as the sun drops down
Soon will be another night
Darkness hides my trembling frown
Far away I saw you
Waving with a solemn smile
I lost my way, I can't keep up
I cannot go another mile
I felt you touch my soul again
But you touched me from behind
You're just another apparition
Fading from my dying mind
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THE WORKMAN
42001080831 - ©2001 WLL
Pounds the walls outside the house
Puts up siding all around
Working fast amidst the heat
Waits for hours to take a seat
In the house a woman tries
To stay asleep but then she sighs
The noise has made her wide awake
She wonders how long the job will take
Later on she goes outside
To see the siding all applied
All the scraps and awful noise
Gave way to something full of poise
Underneath the blazing sun
She sees the work the man has done
Then she saw a dove-like cloud
And realized why the noise was loud
If we are to find our way
We must wake up every day
And have our walls forever torn
Until the day we are reborn.
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DON'T TOUCH ME AGAIN
42001081751 - ©2001 WLL
A fiery touch, electrical shock
Coursing through my leg to my heart
Remove your hand before I start trembling
Or we'll be blazing alone in the dark
I don't know you, and I'm not sure that I want to
I thought it would be fun to go out for a while
This shouldn't happen, to me of all people
I block you out, but I so miss your smile
Get away, don't touch me again
After all we've done, it's better this way
You're just a fling in the back of my mind
It shouldn't have been for more than a day
Tell me how this came to be brought about
Tell me why I still see your face in my head
Why's it so hard to stop thinking of you
Tell me why I can't make it all dead
I have never felt this way in my life
Yet I know you're not the one that I need
I'm to be alone, alone all of my days
Why did the spark have somewhere to lead?
Get away, don't touch me again
After all we've done, it's better this way
You're just a fling in the back of my mind
It shouldn't have been for more than a day
We fooled around all through the night
Losing track of time, I never slept much at all
I've never felt this way with anyone else
If only now I knew I stood tall
It isn't love but a pure physical thing
And I know that you're not the one
Yet despite myself I want you so bad
I hope and pray that it's over and done
Get away, don't touch me again
After all we've done, it's better this way
You're just a fling in the back of my mind
It shouldn't have been for more than a day
It shouldn't have happened at all.
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FORGOTTEN LESSON
42001081752 - ©2001 WLL
You got in beside me
Your leg touching mine
My face told it all
Maybe a sign
Out for an evening
With mutual friends
I never expected
A need for an end
But you sat beside me
With your hand touching mine
The fire consumed me
And it made me so blind
Another night out
Confirmed what I knew
The fire was there
It was burning for you
Your hand touched my back
I leaned on your chest
We danced for a while
That night was the best
And soon we were here
Alone in my bed
I am so tired
Of you in my head
The fire exploded
In passionate lust
I looked in those eyes
I knew I could trust
In less than a week
I saw who we were
I pushed you away
But the fire still burns
So now here I sit
Writing once more
I feel so damned lost
What was it all for?
I now I learned something
But can't remember it now
One day I'll recall it
Though I don't know how.
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BIRTHDAY QUEEN
42001091121 - ©2001 WLL
It seems we met so long ago
Has it only been three years?
We don't write like maybe we should
But to my heart you're always here
Through the fights over that guy
(And by the way, he's MINE MINE MINE!)
We've learned to be more civilized
And we've NEVER crossed the line
Yeah okay, so maybe we did
A few dozen times or so
But this is Peter, so we're allowed
To go as low as gutters go
We've never met and yet I know
So well the person you are
And on your day I have to say
Happy Birthday! though you're so far
So here's to you, oh Birthday Queen
I hope you're happy and doing well
Go listen to Peter and party all night
And pray for a tour so we can all yell
WHOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! GOOOOOOOOOOO PETERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!
(Sorry, got carried away again by that thought...)
Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, dear Candice!!
I hope you know you're loved a LOT!!
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FOREVER
42001101841 - ©2001 WLL
Thought it was imagination
I thought you were only a dream
And then one day I found your name
Nothing is ever as what it may seem
You wrote me back, that's when I found
The Link is there, so very strong
I'd tried to forget, but always I knew
The sense has been there all along
So many nights I called to you
The only one with whom I've shared
The sense I have of minds that touch
As if you're always there
Is it true we do not know?
Is it right for us to be
So torn apart in separate lives
So that we cannot see?
I think I know but then it fades
Into night like cooling air
As if someone pulls the shades
I doubt again if you were there
Yet once again the sense returns
Again I wonder if I'm right
And doubt myself again for now
I think I'll stop this for tonight
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CHASMS
42001102211 - ©2001 WLL
I stare into the emptiness
The future comes to mind
Why don't I know what I need to know
Why am I so far behind
So many are farther yet
But so many are closer still
I try so hard to calm myself
I try so hard to calm my will
But nothing works to cure
The raging colours in my head
They swirl toward shapes I want to see
But they're mysteries instead
Why are we here, it's been so long
Since we met so long ago
Yeah, I've touched you several times
And yeah I knew that I would know
But now it is just like I'd written
Now what should I write next?
How many things are true to us,
How many are simply text?
I feel you staring into me
Without even knowing what I've seen
I fade into the emptiness
I can't explain what I mean
The ring still hugs my finger
Despite the fact that it's been years
I find it hiding in my skin
I wonder if it's seen my tears
I touch it now and see you once more
Memories haunt my mind
As I pick up on you again
And realize I'm not behind.
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BREAKING THE WALL
42001110511 - ©2001 WLL
I look at the ghostly image
Resting within the glass
The emptiness is haunting
I hope that it will pass
I stare into the foggy glass
Please don't be the one
To take my heart from me
For I will not forgive you
If you don't set me free
Eyes stare back with intensity
So familiar, unafraid
Hesitation passes by
Our minds connect so eagerly
Even though we know not why
Neither of us knows just why
What type of fate is this
That pushes us away
Only to reclaim us
In the present day
Tell me it's okay
I'd try to reach out
At times hear your call
Never was sure
If you were in here at all
But you've passed through the Wall
Right here inside me
You're tickling my mind
I feel you touch me
You're no longer behind
We're no longer behind
I'd try to reach out
At times sense your call
Never was sure
If you were in here at all
But you've broken the Wall
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REACHING OUT
42001111171 - ©2001 WLL
Apologies in advance
For what I'm about to do
I hope you do not feel it
But I need to Link to you
Several times I've tried
To put in words the Link we share
But words cannot explain it
Even when you're there
Yet once again I want to try
So please forgive the thoughts I'll send
I know you're blocking but that won't help
For you are way too close a friend.
My thoughts reach out
And softly find
The touch of your senses
And the hum of your mind
The Stars connect us
Swirling around
It's been years
Since you were found
Yet in that time
You've been right here
On several Occasions
I'd sensed you near
And now you are back
I knew we would meet
Though I never realized
That we'd both feel this heat
Yet despite premonitions
I know this is right
Whether it lasts
Is up to the Light
So for now we plunge in
Still aware of the fall
That lingers below us
As we jump from this Wall.
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ENTRANCED
42001111172 - ©2001 WLL
Sit down, Old Friend,
Let me Link to you.
Close your eyes, let me find
What I need to do.
It seems, somewhere,
Within that mind of yours,
You know what I need to Know,
So let me prod some more.
In return you may
Look up what you need, too
I close my eyes, let you find
What you need to do.
Swirling colours come to me
Combine as if they were at play
In and out, all around,
Is it night or is it day?
Sun is setting, darkness looms
We sit still right through it all
Never wondering if this is right
I sense some things you can't recall
I tremble inside as you release
A gentle touch from a raging mind
I reach in further and see a clearing
Is that were the Sun will shine?
Clear a path, I go still further
Deep within your forest of green
I move branches and see it again
Perhaps one day you'll see what I mean.
But now I feel a barricade
Erect itself around the field
In the center lies a person
What more will this vision yield?
Entranced, I find myself so very lost,
Suddenly I wake up with a start.
You are there, with eyes afar,
Did you think I'd find your heart?
Over and over we'll meet like this
Never knowing how or when
All I know is that where we end,
Our souls will meet yet once again.
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THE SMOKE
42001112721 - ©2001 WLL
Smoke encircles a lonely tree
Yet no sign from whence it comes
Rising toward a clear blue sky
It reaches out beyond my eye.
Music flows from all around
Yet no sign from whence it comes
Caught in its rhythm I have to dance
Now I'm tired and in this trance.
Echoes rumble within my mind
Yet no sign from whence they come
I strain to listen but to no avail
They wander off like a haunting wail.
A sudden sound awakens me
I know from whence this sound has come
I click the box and then I read
The simple words of a soul I lead.
Knowledge approaches my mind
And once again I'm not behind
Fleeting ahead so light on its wings
My soul learns quickly of wondrous things.
As quickly as it comes it fades away
So that I'm left with this to say
Will it always avoid my brain
Or would it all make me insane?
Echoes rumble within my head
Soon these thoughts will all be dead
Yet somewhere in here, they're alive
Waiting for another dive.
Smoke encircles a lonely tree
I never know just what I see
Rising toward the nighttime sky
It reaches out beyond my eye.
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WINGSPAN
42001113051 - ©2001 WLL
Fly over the waters, dart through the trees
Touch me again, glide back to me
It isn't the distance but the lack of your mind
Don't keep it hidden, don't leave me behind
Give it some time, don't pull away
You know I'll let go, but can't do it today
I need control and I need to know
That you are there and I'm not alone
So many times I knew you were there
Yet didn't believe it 'cause it wouldn't be fair
Why couldn't I trust the feeling I had?
I knew you'd be here but it still made me mad
I'm setting you free and know from now on
I'll resolve to be free even after we're gone
Such a fine line between us you know
I fly the distance of the road down below
Your wings are stronger yet I will keep going
To find the blue sea where the waters keep flowing
I know I'm ahead in so many ways
If only I'd tap back into those days
Onward you fly, slightly ahead
I should allow my wings to be led
My soul and mind are fine with it all
If only I knew my body stood tall
Fly over the waters, dart through the trees
Touch me again, glide back to me
It isn't the distance but the lack of your mind
Please don't keep it hidden, don't leave me behind
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AWAKENINGS
42001113052 - ©2001 WLL
Blazing fire ripped through the clouds
Lightning crackled all around
Eyes like fire, so calm yet ablaze
Caught my own in a sweet gentle gaze
Never before had I felt such a thing
I didn't know what that look would bring
A simple look that seemed so profound
I wasn't sure 'til I turned around
The suddenness threw me off guard
Never has a look hit me so hard
Recovered and turned to face what I knew
Could only be coming from a person like you
Now it's later and here we are
The hum still crackles even though you're far
My senses awaken and slowly they twine
Around your mind as it touches mine.
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REPETITION
42001113053 - ©2001 WLL
Screw this fight, I can't go on
Living out my life like this
I've fucked up, I cannot lie
I thought I'd felt a loving kiss
The fact is simple and so old
I'm obsessed, you know it's true
All damned day and all damned night
I almost always think of you
Most of the time I think it's just fate
But now I wonder why we'll part
Is it fate or is it me
Aren't I the reason you'll break my heart?
For just how long can you go on
With someone so obsessed as I?
If I were you I'd run away
Just like you did at Yourtown High
Yet despite this knowledge I cannot seem
To rid myself of missing you
Sometimes it's easy but more often it's not
Or is this what gets rid of you?
Questions, questions, I cannot think
I have no answers plain to see
Deep inside I know them all
But none of them are ever me
And just how long can you go on
With someone so obsessed as I?
If I were you I'd run away
Just like you did at Yourtown High.
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MISSING LINKS
42001120861 - ©2001 WLL
So now we're up to three
But still we're missing two
You may not even know it yet
I'm not quite sure I do
When will the others come
Are they already here
Doesn't matter here and now
So long as you are near
The Circle will complete
Only to be broken more
Into many pieces
Like it did before
Speeding on so fast
Life is going on and on
We can never stop it
So soon it will be gone
Where will our senses go
When death comes once again
Can't help but wonder where
We've already been
The Circle will complete
Only to be broken more
Into many pieces
Like it did before
So long as you are near
Seems as though it doesn't matter
If they are already here
Or whether this idea will shatter
I'm never sure if I really know
Yet often doubt you know like me
Still our Circle's missing two
Even though we're up to three
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THE CIRCLE
42001120862 - ©2001 WLL
Round and round we go
Trying to understand
Only just beginning
Learning the best we can
All is repetitious
We've been through this before
I do not know how long we'll be here
Or what the future has in store
Can't recall when we began
Or when our ends were in the past
Were we lovers or just old friends?
How long did every meeting last?
Caught up in the Circle we know
So very well, which never ends,
Our paths collide to make a road
Later to merge with other friends
So young and old at this point in our lives
All connected yet self-defined
Confused, mislead, searching for Truth
Trying to see but so often blind
But within the Circle is a Light
That glows around the paths we take
It shimmers and shines so very bright
Like the rays on a peaceful lake
So on we go in search of Truth
Beyond this Circle we have made
Even as we add another
The Link is strong and doesn't fade
Caught up in the Circle we know
So very well, which never ends,
Our paths collide and make a road
Later to merge with other friends
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THE TREES
42001121341 - ©2001 WLL
I'm caught within the ground
A seed in dire need of love
A fluffy cloud rains onto me
Like an angel from above
Absorbing into the ground it touched
So very slight my outer shell
I felt it there and I reached out
Emerging from a tiny cell
Roots sprang forth and I was free
To grow new leaves and reach so high
I became a little tree
Soon I sprang up towards the sky
The sun upon my leaves so green
Shines on me forever more
Sustaining with a gentle love
A little sapling to adore
Another set of roots found mine
And soon we grew as if one tree
Branches reaching everywhere
Then I felt you touching me
My bark is hard, but inside I stay
So very tender, young and green
Like the sapling I once was
My fellow tree knows what I mean
For inside it, too, is young
Despite the bark as tough as mine
Like our roots beneath the earth
Our branches start to intertwine
A fluffy cloud rains onto us
Like an angel from above
Between us both we plant a seed
Created by an endless love
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THE PROMISE
42001122041 - ©2001 WLL
There's a story of the time
When the rainbow came to be
Many days and many nights
It kept raining steadily
Then the heavens slowed their dams
A loving Promise was then made
With a symbol of His Word
Thus the colours seen today
But we are the lucky ones
Even in this world of crime
For we can know a greater Gift
If we only take the time
His sign is but a simple cross
Yet this symbol stands for more
Let's not forget the real, true meaning
Of this season we adore.
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HAVEN
42001123111 - ©2001 WLL
This is my Haven which no one can take
Within these thin walls the outdoors I forsake
I enjoy my time in here, time all self-made
But only because I'm also afraid
Like a young bird, I cling to my twig
So afraid to go out, for the world is so big
Such meager excuses for not getting around
Surely, somewhere, the fun could abound
Computers and music surround me in life
If 'twere not for work I'd die by this knife
Yet still I hang on to what little I know
Here come all my reasons that melt with the snow
I can't get around, or afford it right now
My schedule's funky, I don't quite know how
To make it all work, it would never be steady
The truth is so simple: I'm not sure that I'm ready
For where there's a will, there's also a way
Otherwise Selene would not sit here today
I would not have the job that I'd wanted so long
And still I'd be living where I'd never be strong
Yet here I sit, within these walls
And there at work, within the halls
My only ambition is staying home once again
To hide in my Haven like a mouse in her den
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During 2001, I began to get introspective again, got sideswiped by a few poems that sort of poured out without an understanding of what I meant by them, encountered my second boyfriend, and then requited unrequited puppydog love from years earlier. I had all but come to think I was completely crazy for seeing things others didn’t when this occurred; with him, I knew I wasn’t alone, at least.
As a result of our similar experiences with those things unscientifically explainable, I again became aware of more things and fought against seeing them. I tried to turn more and more to God (read: really big spirit that is everywhere all the time and feels loving and powerful). I had a lot of support there, as I continued to struggle away from obsession and see the world in a less biased way.