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Poetry, 2001

 

LIKE A ROAD THAT NEVER ENDS

42001012321 - ©2001 WLL


Like a road that never ends,

Our lives stretch out before our eyes.

Twists and turns will help us steer

Away from hatred and from lies.


Down this road of Life I walk,

Learning as I go along.

The road goes on into the Sun

Reminding me of when I'm wrong.


And if I ever lose my way,

The rising Sun shall lead me on,

And not allow me to give up

Until the road is gone.


Like a road that never ends,

My life will stretch before my eyes.

Twists and turns will help me steer

Away from hatred and from lies.


Once the sky was dark and gray

And now the storm has gone.

The road was endless and yet at times

I realized I had to go on.


Then I came upon the end

Of the road I knew was wrong

And began another I know is right

And it doesn't seem as long.


Like a road that never ends,

My life has stretched before my eyes.

Twists and turns have helped me steer

Away from hatred and from lies.


A new day dawns and with it a life,

For somewhere a mother has given birth.

Her daughter will know nothing but hate,

Yet somehow her soul will rise from the earth.


And a son is born to someone else

Who doesn't know what to do.

She mourns for him and gives him up

And hopes he'll know her heart was true.


Each life is different and yet the same,

For every person can find their way.

Every night the sun will set,

Only to start another day.


Like a road the never ends,

Our lives have stretched before our eyes.

Twists and turns have helped us steer

Away from hatred and from lies.


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WINDOWS

42001022241 - ©2001 WLL


Gaze into the window

At the lights within

A darkened room

A single light

Burning 'til the dawn


The flame goes out

Another lights

The window right next door

Gaze into this and find yourself

Mesmerized


Like a little fawn

About to be run over

Sees the headlights

Trusts too much

And then it is all over


Some are cloudy

Others are clear

Many are swirled

While some are feared

But few are able to see

The windows across the way


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NIGHT SHADOWS

42001030621 - ©2001 WLL


In the shadows of Night I'm lost

Waiting for the chance to be found

Is someone here to rescue me?

I wonder as I look around.


Your voice I heard in the depths of the night's rain

I call your name in the dark of the Night

You call to me but I don't hear you

Then I saw you, bathed in light.


Arms outstretched, you take me home

With love inside I've never known.

Despite the hurt, the anger and rage

Never again will you leave me alone.


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THE FLAME BURNS LOW

42001031871 - ©2001 WLL


A candle was lit

Burned bright in the doom

Casting its warmth

All over the room


Sometimes it flickered

But always burned bright

Even through storms,

It gave off its light.


Now it dwindles down below

The golden rim that holds it

Soon the flame will be extinguished

And in the wax will lie the wick.


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COUNTRY 'N' CRAP

42001041021 - ©2001 WLL


Everybody likes

A different type of music

But what I have to listen to

Well I'm just about to lose it


Banging on the wall

Screaming in my ear

Rattling all the windows

Noise so very near


Ready to explode

Is about the place I'm at

I don't care what you call it

I think it's Country 'N' Crap


People in this town

Love Country don't you see

The ones who don't, like Rap

And both so grate on me


Not the Country I'm used to;

Oh, no, it's achy breaky stuff

Rap sucks even worse you see

And I've heard both enough!


Call it what you like

I say it's Country 'N' Crap

That awful boring Country stuff

And that crap they've titled "rap"


Throw 'em out the window

Get rid of every one

Which doesn't strike a chord in me!

And with that said, I'm done.

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FINAL MOMENTS

42001042161 - ©2001 WLL


Looking out the window glass

I see the dew upon the grass

Frost had made the whole ground heave

But now the buds turn into leaves


Spring has sprung, or so they say

But that won't mean you're not away

Beauty rings so very true

I only wish I could see you


Close my eyes, hold my breath

Love despite unwanted death

Goes on and on while I'm asleep

This love for you is very deep


I hope we meet again sometime

So many times I want to die

Just so I can be with you

Run in meadows like you do


Final moments laid to rest

No longer will you touch my chest

But in my heart you know you'll stay

Deep within my soul you'll lay


Close my eyes, hold my breath

Love despite unwanted death

Goes on and on while I'm asleep

This love for you is very deep


Close my eyes, hold my breath

Love despite unwanted death

Goes on and on while I'm asleep

This love for you is always deep


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PICTURE ON THE WALL

42001042162 - ©2001 WLL


Many nights I dream of you

Wishing you could feel it, too

But daylight hits me, I'm awake

Another day I cannot take


See your picture hanging there

Enjoy the image of your hair

Feathered back, your gorgeous face

Calls to me from another place


But I know I can't have you

In my life like others do

I hear you now, I hear your call

You're just a picture on the wall


Many times I feel your touch

Only because I want so much

To have you here and holding me

Yet I know that cannot be


Look at you within the frame

Staring back with zero shame

Just a look I've loved so long

How could a love exist that's wrong?


But I know I can't have you

In my life like others do

I hear you now, I hear your call

You're just a picture on the wall


I know I cannot have you here

I know I'll never hold you dear

Fading away, I hear your call

Just like the picture on the wall


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OFF IN A CORNER

42001042271 - ©2001 WLL


Wind outside

Stinging rain

Darkness falls

Hides the pain

Young boy falters

Flees in vain

On the tracks

A moving train


Whistle blows

He knows too well

He cannot jump

For he can't tell

How deep it is

Oh, this is hell

Couldn't get worse

Unless he fell


On he runs

To get away

Wishes he

Were in some play

Or in a dream

This is not day

He could be dreaming

It'll be okay


Screams, the train

Moves on ahead

He tried to run

He really fled

But soon the tracks

Would be his bed

Crumpled heap

The boy is dead


Off in a corner

He used to play

Times got rough

He hated day

So out he went

To find his way

Now on the tracks

His body lay


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MIRAGES

42001072971 - ©2001 WLL


Far away I see you

Waving with a solemn smile

I'm looking for a path to you

All I see is yellow tile


Before me lies a road

It stretches far ahead

The road behind is crumbling

My sanity has fled


The only way is forward now

Beneath the blazing sun

Now and then a mirage appears

Taunting me with a taste of fun


Far away I see you

Waving with a solemn smile

I walk faster, try hard to catch up

But every step just adds a mile


Soon you're just a sad mirage

Disappearing from my sight

All I remember of you now

Is your fading trail of light


I call your name without a voice

Even as the sun drops down

Soon will be another night

Darkness hides my trembling frown


Far away I saw you

Waving with a solemn smile

I lost my way, I can't keep up

I cannot go another mile


I felt you touch my soul again

But you touched me from behind

You're just another apparition

Fading from my dying mind


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THE WORKMAN

42001080831 - ©2001 WLL


Pounds the walls outside the house

Puts up siding all around

Working fast amidst the heat

Waits for hours to take a seat


In the house a woman tries

To stay asleep but then she sighs

The noise has made her wide awake

She wonders how long the job will take


Later on she goes outside

To see the siding all applied

All the scraps and awful noise

Gave way to something full of poise


Underneath the blazing sun

She sees the work the man has done

Then she saw a dove-like cloud

And realized why the noise was loud


If we are to find our way

We must wake up every day

And have our walls forever torn

Until the day we are reborn.


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DON'T TOUCH ME AGAIN

42001081751 - ©2001 WLL


A fiery touch, electrical shock

Coursing through my leg to my heart

Remove your hand before I start trembling

Or we'll be blazing alone in the dark


I don't know you, and I'm not sure that I want to

I thought it would be fun to go out for a while

This shouldn't happen, to me of all people

I block you out, but I so miss your smile


Get away, don't touch me again

After all we've done, it's better this way

You're just a fling in the back of my mind

It shouldn't have been for more than a day


Tell me how this came to be brought about

Tell me why I still see your face in my head

Why's it so hard to stop thinking of you

Tell me why I can't make it all dead


I have never felt this way in my life

Yet I know you're not the one that I need

I'm to be alone, alone all of my days

Why did the spark have somewhere to lead?


Get away, don't touch me again

After all we've done, it's better this way

You're just a fling in the back of my mind

It shouldn't have been for more than a day


We fooled around all through the night

Losing track of time, I never slept much at all

I've never felt this way with anyone else

If only now I knew I stood tall


It isn't love but a pure physical thing

And I know that you're not the one

Yet despite myself I want you so bad

I hope and pray that it's over and done


Get away, don't touch me again

After all we've done, it's better this way

You're just a fling in the back of my mind

It shouldn't have been for more than a day


It shouldn't have happened at all.


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FORGOTTEN LESSON

42001081752 - ©2001 WLL


You got in beside me

Your leg touching mine

My face told it all

Maybe a sign


Out for an evening

With mutual friends

I never expected

A need for an end


But you sat beside me

With your hand touching mine

The fire consumed me

And it made me so blind


Another night out

Confirmed what I knew

The fire was there

It was burning for you


Your hand touched my back

I leaned on your chest

We danced for a while

That night was the best


And soon we were here

Alone in my bed

I am so tired

Of you in my head


The fire exploded

In passionate lust

I looked in those eyes

I knew I could trust


In less than a week

I saw who we were

I pushed you away

But the fire still burns


So now here I sit

Writing once more

I feel so damned lost

What was it all for?


I now I learned something

But can't remember it now

One day I'll recall it

Though I don't know how.


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BIRTHDAY QUEEN

42001091121 - ©2001 WLL


It seems we met so long ago

Has it only been three years?

We don't write like maybe we should

But to my heart you're always here


Through the fights over that guy

(And by the way, he's MINE MINE MINE!)

We've learned to be more civilized

And we've NEVER crossed the line


Yeah okay, so maybe we did

A few dozen times or so

But this is Peter, so we're allowed

To go as low as gutters go


We've never met and yet I know

So well the person you are

And on your day I have to say

Happy Birthday! though you're so far


So here's to you, oh Birthday Queen

I hope you're happy and doing well

Go listen to Peter and party all night

And pray for a tour so we can all yell


WHOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! GOOOOOOOOOOO PETERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!

(Sorry, got carried away again by that thought...)

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, dear Candice!!

I hope you know you're loved a LOT!!


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FOREVER

42001101841 - ©2001 WLL


Thought it was imagination

I thought you were only a dream

And then one day I found your name

Nothing is ever as what it may seem


You wrote me back, that's when I found

The Link is there, so very strong

I'd tried to forget, but always I knew

The sense has been there all along


So many nights I called to you

The only one with whom I've shared

The sense I have of minds that touch

As if you're always there


Is it true we do not know?

Is it right for us to be

So torn apart in separate lives

So that we cannot see?


I think I know but then it fades

Into night like cooling air

As if someone pulls the shades

I doubt again if you were there


Yet once again the sense returns

Again I wonder if I'm right

And doubt myself again for now

I think I'll stop this for tonight


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CHASMS

42001102211 - ©2001 WLL


I stare into the emptiness

The future comes to mind

Why don't I know what I need to know

Why am I so far behind


So many are farther yet

But so many are closer still

I try so hard to calm myself

I try so hard to calm my will


But nothing works to cure

The raging colours in my head

They swirl toward shapes I want to see

But they're mysteries instead


Why are we here, it's been so long

Since we met so long ago

Yeah, I've touched you several times

And yeah I knew that I would know


But now it is just like I'd written

Now what should I write next?

How many things are true to us,

How many are simply text?


I feel you staring into me

Without even knowing what I've seen

I fade into the emptiness

I can't explain what I mean


The ring still hugs my finger

Despite the fact that it's been years

I find it hiding in my skin

I wonder if it's seen my tears


I touch it now and see you once more

Memories haunt my mind

As I pick up on you again

And realize I'm not behind.


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BREAKING THE WALL

42001110511 - ©2001 WLL


I look at the ghostly image

Resting within the glass

The emptiness is haunting

I hope that it will pass


I stare into the foggy glass


Please don't be the one

To take my heart from me

For I will not forgive you

If you don't set me free


Eyes stare back with intensity


So familiar, unafraid

Hesitation passes by

Our minds connect so eagerly

Even though we know not why


Neither of us knows just why


What type of fate is this

That pushes us away

Only to reclaim us

In the present day


Tell me it's okay


I'd try to reach out

At times hear your call

Never was sure

If you were in here at all


But you've passed through the Wall


Right here inside me

You're tickling my mind

I feel you touch me

You're no longer behind


We're no longer behind


I'd try to reach out

At times sense your call

Never was sure

If you were in here at all


But you've broken the Wall


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REACHING OUT

42001111171 - ©2001 WLL


Apologies in advance

For what I'm about to do

I hope you do not feel it

But I need to Link to you


Several times I've tried

To put in words the Link we share

But words cannot explain it

Even when you're there


Yet once again I want to try

So please forgive the thoughts I'll send

I know you're blocking but that won't help

For you are way too close a friend.


My thoughts reach out

And softly find

The touch of your senses

And the hum of your mind


The Stars connect us

Swirling around

It's been years

Since you were found


Yet in that time

You've been right here

On several Occasions

I'd sensed you near


And now you are back

I knew we would meet

Though I never realized

That we'd both feel this heat


Yet despite premonitions

I know this is right

Whether it lasts

Is up to the Light


So for now we plunge in

Still aware of the fall

That lingers below us

As we jump from this Wall.


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ENTRANCED

42001111172 - ©2001 WLL


Sit down, Old Friend,

Let me Link to you.

Close your eyes, let me find

What I need to do.


It seems, somewhere,

Within that mind of yours,

You know what I need to Know,

So let me prod some more.


In return you may

Look up what you need, too

I close my eyes, let you find

What you need to do.


Swirling colours come to me

Combine as if they were at play

In and out, all around,

Is it night or is it day?


Sun is setting, darkness looms

We sit still right through it all

Never wondering if this is right

I sense some things you can't recall


I tremble inside as you release

A gentle touch from a raging mind

I reach in further and see a clearing

Is that were the Sun will shine?


Clear a path, I go still further

Deep within your forest of green

I move branches and see it again

Perhaps one day you'll see what I mean.


But now I feel a barricade

Erect itself around the field

In the center lies a person

What more will this vision yield?


Entranced, I find myself so very lost,

Suddenly I wake up with a start.

You are there, with eyes afar,

Did you think I'd find your heart?


Over and over we'll meet like this

Never knowing how or when

All I know is that where we end,

Our souls will meet yet once again.


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THE SMOKE

42001112721 - ©2001 WLL


Smoke encircles a lonely tree

Yet no sign from whence it comes

Rising toward a clear blue sky

It reaches out beyond my eye.


Music flows from all around

Yet no sign from whence it comes

Caught in its rhythm I have to dance

Now I'm tired and in this trance.


Echoes rumble within my mind

Yet no sign from whence they come

I strain to listen but to no avail

They wander off like a haunting wail.


A sudden sound awakens me

I know from whence this sound has come

I click the box and then I read

The simple words of a soul I lead.


Knowledge approaches my mind

And once again I'm not behind

Fleeting ahead so light on its wings

My soul learns quickly of wondrous things.


As quickly as it comes it fades away

So that I'm left with this to say

Will it always avoid my brain

Or would it all make me insane?


Echoes rumble within my head

Soon these thoughts will all be dead

Yet somewhere in here, they're alive

Waiting for another dive.


Smoke encircles a lonely tree

I never know just what I see

Rising toward the nighttime sky

It reaches out beyond my eye.


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WINGSPAN

42001113051 - ©2001 WLL


Fly over the waters, dart through the trees

Touch me again, glide back to me

It isn't the distance but the lack of your mind

Don't keep it hidden, don't leave me behind


Give it some time, don't pull away

You know I'll let go, but can't do it today

I need control and I need to know

That you are there and I'm not alone


So many times I knew you were there

Yet didn't believe it 'cause it wouldn't be fair

Why couldn't I trust the feeling I had?

I knew you'd be here but it still made me mad


I'm setting you free and know from now on

I'll resolve to be free even after we're gone

Such a fine line between us you know

I fly the distance of the road down below


Your wings are stronger yet I will keep going

To find the blue sea where the waters keep flowing

I know I'm ahead in so many ways

If only I'd tap back into those days


Onward you fly, slightly ahead

I should allow my wings to be led

My soul and mind are fine with it all

If only I knew my body stood tall


Fly over the waters, dart through the trees

Touch me again, glide back to me

It isn't the distance but the lack of your mind

Please don't keep it hidden, don't leave me behind


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AWAKENINGS

42001113052 - ©2001 WLL


Blazing fire ripped through the clouds

Lightning crackled all around

Eyes like fire, so calm yet ablaze

Caught my own in a sweet gentle gaze


Never before had I felt such a thing

I didn't know what that look would bring

A simple look that seemed so profound

I wasn't sure 'til I turned around


The suddenness threw me off guard

Never has a look hit me so hard

Recovered and turned to face what I knew

Could only be coming from a person like you


Now it's later and here we are

The hum still crackles even though you're far

My senses awaken and slowly they twine

Around your mind as it touches mine.


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REPETITION

42001113053 - ©2001 WLL


Screw this fight, I can't go on

Living out my life like this

I've fucked up, I cannot lie

I thought I'd felt a loving kiss


The fact is simple and so old

I'm obsessed, you know it's true

All damned day and all damned night

I almost always think of you


Most of the time I think it's just fate

But now I wonder why we'll part

Is it fate or is it me

Aren't I the reason you'll break my heart?


For just how long can you go on

With someone so obsessed as I?

If I were you I'd run away

Just like you did at Yourtown High


Yet despite this knowledge I cannot seem

To rid myself of missing you

Sometimes it's easy but more often it's not

Or is this what gets rid of you?


Questions, questions, I cannot think

I have no answers plain to see

Deep inside I know them all

But none of them are ever me


And just how long can you go on

With someone so obsessed as I?

If I were you I'd run away

Just like you did at Yourtown High.


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MISSING LINKS

42001120861 - ©2001 WLL


So now we're up to three

But still we're missing two

You may not even know it yet

I'm not quite sure I do


When will the others come

Are they already here

Doesn't matter here and now

So long as you are near


The Circle will complete

Only to be broken more

Into many pieces

Like it did before


Speeding on so fast

Life is going on and on

We can never stop it

So soon it will be gone


Where will our senses go

When death comes once again

Can't help but wonder where

We've already been


The Circle will complete

Only to be broken more

Into many pieces

Like it did before


So long as you are near

Seems as though it doesn't matter

If they are already here

Or whether this idea will shatter


I'm never sure if I really know

Yet often doubt you know like me

Still our Circle's missing two

Even though we're up to three


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THE CIRCLE

42001120862 - ©2001 WLL


Round and round we go

Trying to understand

Only just beginning

Learning the best we can


All is repetitious

We've been through this before

I do not know how long we'll be here

Or what the future has in store


Can't recall when we began

Or when our ends were in the past

Were we lovers or just old friends?

How long did every meeting last?


Caught up in the Circle we know

So very well, which never ends,

Our paths collide to make a road

Later to merge with other friends


So young and old at this point in our lives

All connected yet self-defined

Confused, mislead, searching for Truth

Trying to see but so often blind


But within the Circle is a Light

That glows around the paths we take

It shimmers and shines so very bright

Like the rays on a peaceful lake


So on we go in search of Truth

Beyond this Circle we have made

Even as we add another

The Link is strong and doesn't fade


Caught up in the Circle we know

So very well, which never ends,

Our paths collide and make a road

Later to merge with other friends


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THE TREES

42001121341 - ©2001 WLL


I'm caught within the ground

A seed in dire need of love

A fluffy cloud rains onto me

Like an angel from above


Absorbing into the ground it touched

So very slight my outer shell

I felt it there and I reached out

Emerging from a tiny cell


Roots sprang forth and I was free

To grow new leaves and reach so high

I became a little tree

Soon I sprang up towards the sky


The sun upon my leaves so green

Shines on me forever more

Sustaining with a gentle love

A little sapling to adore


Another set of roots found mine

And soon we grew as if one tree

Branches reaching everywhere

Then I felt you touching me


My bark is hard, but inside I stay

So very tender, young and green

Like the sapling I once was

My fellow tree knows what I mean


For inside it, too, is young

Despite the bark as tough as mine

Like our roots beneath the earth

Our branches start to intertwine


A fluffy cloud rains onto us

Like an angel from above

Between us both we plant a seed

Created by an endless love


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THE PROMISE

42001122041 - ©2001 WLL


There's a story of the time

When the rainbow came to be

Many days and many nights

It kept raining steadily


Then the heavens slowed their dams

A loving Promise was then made

With a symbol of His Word

Thus the colours seen today


But we are the lucky ones

Even in this world of crime

For we can know a greater Gift

If we only take the time


His sign is but a simple cross

Yet this symbol stands for more

Let's not forget the real, true meaning

Of this season we adore.


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HAVEN

42001123111 - ©2001 WLL


This is my Haven which no one can take

Within these thin walls the outdoors I forsake

I enjoy my time in here, time all self-made

But only because I'm also afraid


Like a young bird, I cling to my twig

So afraid to go out, for the world is so big

Such meager excuses for not getting around

Surely, somewhere, the fun could abound


Computers and music surround me in life

If 'twere not for work I'd die by this knife

Yet still I hang on to what little I know

Here come all my reasons that melt with the snow


I can't get around, or afford it right now

My schedule's funky, I don't quite know how

To make it all work, it would never be steady

The truth is so simple: I'm not sure that I'm ready


For where there's a will, there's also a way

Otherwise Selene would not sit here today

I would not have the job that I'd wanted so long

And still I'd be living where I'd never be strong


Yet here I sit, within these walls

And there at work, within the halls

My only ambition is staying home once again

To hide in my Haven like a mouse in her den


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During 2001, I began to get introspective again, got sideswiped by a few poems that sort of poured out without an understanding of what I meant by them, encountered my second boyfriend, and then requited unrequited puppydog love from years earlier.  I had all but come to think I was completely crazy for seeing things others didn’t when this occurred; with him, I knew I wasn’t alone, at least.


As a result of our similar experiences with those things unscientifically explainable, I again became aware of more things and fought against seeing them.  I tried to turn more and more to God (read:  really big spirit that is everywhere all the time and feels loving and powerful).  I had a lot of support there, as I continued to struggle away from obsession and see the world in a less biased way.