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Poetry, 2005

WHET STONE

You won't be there for me

Within the morning light

When all the stars go in to sleep

Or return to shine at night

But everything will be all right

Sunlight shines upon this Road

Lessons learned from past and now

I've seen myself when I was old

Sharpened well against these walls

The Sword of Hope is glowing bright

Reflecting joy that grows in me

The spark that turns me toward the Light

No you won't be right there for me

Within the morning light

When all the stars go in to sleep

Or return to shine at night

But in the dawn when I awaken

Hope pours forth from all the clouds

Where I'm going you won't follow

Lifted are my heavy shrouds

Sharpened well against these walls

The Sword of Hope is glowing bright

Reflecting joy that grows in me

The spark that turns me toward the Light

Funny how our lives will cross

Never knowing how they send

Waves of wisdom through our lands

I guess at times our friendships end

And I know you won't be there for me

Within the darkness of tonight

But stars awaken from their sleep

To shine forth their guiding light

And in the dawn when I awaken

Hope will pour from all the clouds

For where I'm going, you can't follow

So lifted are my heavy shrouds

I've sharpened well against these stones

Which I'm breaking down again

Sharing joy that shines in me

Open is the Promised Land

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BROKEN GIRL

The music plays

I start to dance

By the window

I'm in a trance

When through the panes

I strain to see

A broken girl

I swear it's me

Her hair hangs down

She hides her face

She walks along

The paths I race

I call to her

I tap the glass

I yell for her to hear

But know she'll pass

Her life goes on

She needs to know

And I can't tell her

What life will show

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SNOWFALL

He was just a teaser

Got a taste of love and wanted more

He will never please her

Still he went and closed the door

They're in need of each other

And I need a love that's real

One day I could be a mother

I'd like to think that I could heal

So I've turned to God, now

Things are much plainer to see

And though I never knew how

I've let go and now I'm free

I used to think he was smarter

Doubted all that I'd become

Enchanted by his laughter

Never thought I could be so dumb

But listen to the snow fall

Falls like mist upon the ground

Gently drifting snowfall

With the sun shining all around

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101

Lengthy conversations

Racing pods into the day

Popcorn on the stove, unpopped

Lots of games that we could play

(there are two kinds)

But here we lay with arms entwined

So perfect is the morning light

Is this all a joyful dream?

Or do stars glow without the night?

(the stars are in your eyes)

Set a token on my cheek

Smile as I fall asleep

My dreams are full of hiking trails

I gaze into a river deep

(the river is your soul)

For every moment we have shared so far

Has been a lifetime spent in flight

We soar above the trees and clouds

Deep into a dream-filled night

(yet remain grounded)

I hear your voice, it calls to me

Lights are shining in your eyes

Your smile brightens a beautiful day

Freedom bears not one disguise

(it makes you whole)

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THE MOVIE

Nightstick tapping in our minds

Comically says to move along

We take heed and drive away

Even though we've done no wrong

So pretty soon, we're at my place

Looking through the window-pane

In the sky, moon almost full

The stars are out, no sign of rain

Our elbows touch as I quickly pray

I feel you near, so close to me

A billion worlds and you found mine

I am happy as can be

Then erupts a gentle flow

Of emotions shared between us

Making love beneath the stars

Shining down, one must be Venus

Your body shakes, your eyes meet mine

As we speak without a sound

I look around the moonlit room

Love lights twinkle all around

I hold you close, I can't let go

You touch my cheek, we are sublime

Once again your eyes meet mine

We're unaware of passing time

Then I see the gorgeous glow

All around you, aqua, blue

A hint of green, a red that fades

How I love just watching you

I find myself within your eyes

As sleep begins to overtake

Exchange of subtle, loving words

We dream until once more awake

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STARGAZER

It amazed me just then

As the look in your eyes

Changed with my own

I was caught by surprise

The power in that look

The meaning as I gazed

At the desire in your stare

Like a deer, I stood there dazed

And nothing else existed

Except the world around us

A rain-filled day could look like sun

Cascading down on everyone

Music tickles all our senses

Beating rhythms in our blood

Taking turns, we listen well

And feel the beat of every thud

The tears stream down my face at times

Though nothing in the world is wrong

I wonder how I got so lucky

It took me years to get this strong

And when I wake up to your touch

And look into your sleepy face

I jump inside because your smile

Lights up every darkened place

And nothing else exists

Except the world around us

A rain-filled day could look like sun

Cascading down on everyone

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PONDERINGS

Why is it when the sunlight

Shines through the shades, so bright

I see the path I've walked upon

And so much of it was in dark light?

Why is it when the rain

Comes falling gently down

I feel the blazing heat of tears

And remember how I used to frown?

And why do I remember

The clouds up in the sky

When everything for me has changed

And I no longer want to die?

Is it because I have to know

How my life is much more grand

So that the present holds the glow

That God has placed within my hand?

And is it right for me to think

That all the love I feel within

Is that much stronger than the pain

Because I overcame the sin?

Why is it when I'm eating

I feel as if I'm full

Even if I'm not quite done

And fall into a happy lull?

Why is it when I'm looking

Into this person's eyes

I know exactly who I am

And cannot sense my old disguise?

And why do I remember

The long road I have taken

Where all the saplings there have grown

And none can now be shaken?

Is it caused by understanding

That all the pain was for a reason

And made me who I am today

Where Summer is the only season?

And is it right for me to think

That all the strength I feel within

Is strong enough to let this love

Continue on without the sin?

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PAST LIVES

I kept waking to the sound

Of little punctures in the sheet

A slight meow, I realized

That you and I did really meet

A smile crossed my lips as I

Promptly went right back to sleep

I reached for you within my mind

Knowing how I've fallen deep

Dreams of you have graced my mind

I remember how I once would hide

And nothing in my past compares

To this feeling deep inside

You may not know just what I was

What took me years to finally sink

My past ain't pretty but it's not that bad

Still I wonder what you'll think

It's not as if my life was perfect

It's not like I have been a saint

I hold you now, I'm in your arms

But my little fence was not this quaint

It rose up from the earth, cast iron

Bloody with the souls of men

Who didn't understand respect or love

Me, oh I won't go back again

But then a Light shown on me, Love

I found my ways were bad for me

I made a vow to God to try

And become the person that you see

My disguises all have shattered

Repenting I have often done

Life has meaning I'd never known

I don't have a need to run

And as I found myself I thought

That you may never come my way

And I told God that was OK

Because I knew He'd spark each day

I didn't know what He had planned

I didn't know that you would write

I didn't know what this was like

But now I know that Love is bright

And every day when I awake

Still I think that I'm asleep

And when I think that it will fade

I remember that my soul is deep

Full of God, and Light and Love

And now it's also full of you

I cast away my earthly doubts

And welcome in this feeling, too

Then I think of reasons why

Love once left my saddened heart

It's powerful, would I survive

If it hit me, cold and stark?

As I've grown away from pain

Slowly making bounds and leaps

In a world of love and hate

I've found an ace that I can keep

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WEEKNIGHTS

Strength ebbs in and out of me

Needles fall from every tree

All around us, not a care

Every day that you are there

What do you see within your dreams

What would you see if I weren't there

I'm still falling deep for you

How far this goes, I know not where

I dance with you outside my head

My eyes are full of happy light

In your face is awesome wonder

Glowing in the starry night

Your hands on mine, a loving hold

The glimmer in my eyes is bold

I love your touch, the things you say

I want to be here every day

Your very breath is full of words

Words that never could be said

You stand there with your Cheerios

Eager for what's in my head

Time is short, and soon we'll go

Our separate ways but then we know

That when the day comes to an end

The night will bring me back again

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EMANCIPATION

In God there is Hope

And in Hope there is Light

In God there is Love

And in Love there is Happiness

In God there is Forgiveness

And in Forgiveness, Emancipation

In Freedom comes the Memories

From which arrive the Realizations

Realizations that bring Truths

And in those Truths you find

All the Aces you can play

But none are ever worth the bet

Throw away the deck of cards

Throw away the dice of chance

Surrender to the force of Love

Allow yourself the time to dance

God can lift up every burden

Allow yourself the Love He grants

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SLEEP AWAKE

I watch you sleep

Breathing deeply

Snoring off and on

Your brow so peaceful

Eyes shut softly

Sleeping in my arms

I close my eyes

As I pull out my hand

To feel your breath

I place it then upon your side

To feel your breath move

And then I rest my hand in yours

I fall asleep

Breathing deeply

Snoring off and on

My dreams are peaceful

My eyes are open

As I sleep within your arms, awake

note:

Sleep just became my funny word of the day.

It simply looks funny.

I know what it is, what it means, but for some reason...

...it really REALLY looks funny!

Ever notice that phenomenon, of a known word becoming

unknown almost?

Weird.

Very weird.

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CHANCES

Yesterday within the rays of the sun

I had a vision that hasn't yet come

Then the clouds came and showed me some more

As the tears fell I wondered what for

I've seen you with her in your arms

Little pink ribbon tied 'round her sweet head

You looked up at me, your smile ablaze

At first I was stunned, but now I'm amazed

I don't know

What the future brings

But if I've really seen her

And her time will come

I'll welcome her with open arms

I've seen a different side of me

And now I've seen a different you

At times I feel

As if I'm crawling

Then I waken with a start

And see how fast I'm moving

Time waits for no one

I grasp at every moment

As if it might just be my last

What if it is? Would I deny

Myself the chance for happiness?

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WATERS UNDAMNED

I am numb at the moment

So many feelings have been surging through

This heart of mine, like waters undammed

Happiness, for me, is all very new

Her moving away helped free my mind

I could live my life on my own

But I'd been living on borrowed time

I knew I needed to rediscover my home

That's when You came, so strongly and true

None other in Life could ever do

What You have done for me in my realm

When I was in need, You took the helm

And then in the hours of evening and dawn

When I was alone but still very calm

You sent me a gentle, intelligent soul

Just as I found myself to be whole

I thought I was numb, but as I found out

All of my feelings have been surging through

This heart and soul, like waters undamned

I look at my life, for the world is so new

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OVER THE TOWER

The sensation of what can only be love

It sparkles in my soul

Like a billion stars over the moonlit water

Glowing as the sun radiates

Into the windswept clouds above it

Who whisper softly into the sky

"Love, love."

Then I get clawed in the armpit

And awaken to see a cat

Being tossed upon the floor

By my ever-ready arm muscles.

But every evening, once more

I see the bluish lights upon the walls

Your face pieced together with shards of light

Coming into focus within the depths of night

And you're smiling upon me. And every evening

The memories of lightning crash all around

Whatever room we might be in

And I recall the tension in your arms

As you held me, afraid to let me go

Lest a single bolt take me

From the very place I stood.

I stand upon the mountaintops

I peer down over cliffs

Once afraid of heights

Now knowing I am safe.

I feel God's love around me

And know that life is only

What we choose to make of it

And as this realization

Softly conquers all my worries

Each and every day I wonder

How I came up with the idea of you

How you so easily materialized

In my world of former sorrows.

You floated through my door

As if a friendly ghost

And wrapped these delicate chains

Around my strengthened heart

'twould be so easy to break them

But why would I want to break them

And rip this feeling from my scars?

Your hands caress me

Your breath awaits my own

Your eyes, they sparkle

Beneath the morning sky

Adding their light

To an already beautiful sunrise

Living on until the sun sets

Over the tower

And softly dropping shut

In ocean waves of dream-filled rest

Where I linger, unafraid.

Yes, indeed, I love you.

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INJUSTICES

Things in the world just ain't quite right

They may never be when we don't have sight

You say your life is bad, you cannot help but cry

Maybe even thinking that you wish that you could die

But we all have our problems, this I know is true

It's all in how you look at things and faith that gets you through

And if your life does not improve, at least you've still got you

'Cause you're the only one you'll know your whole life through

Memories of darkness still plague my dreams at times

I remember when we didn't even have two dimes

But when the sun comes up, I wipe away the tears

'Cause nothing much arises from inundating fears

Perhaps some day you'll find yourself hidden in a grove of trees

Unsure of where you're going next, but running from the bees

I pray for you to find your way so some day you will see

Though only once have I believed you'd want the same for me

But we all have our problems, this I know is true

And it's all in how I look at things and Faith that gets me through

And though you wish to take away the things that I hold true

I still love you just the same and hope that you'll pull through

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MOONROOF

Last night I had an awesome dream

That you had come to be with me

You arrived in a sporty blue car

You took my hand in yours

And together we drove off into the hills

We played miniature golf together

And looked into each others' eyes

As if nothing else in the world

Ever existed so strongly

As the love we share between us

Both of us hit a hole in one

The excitement in your eyes was great

We jumped for joy, no competition

And as our tummies rumbled hunger

We drove away with heightened senses

You took me to this restaurant

The bread was awesome, smoothies too

Meat that melted in my mouth

But through the awesome atmosphere

I once again heard "I love you"

You didn't really say it but

I heard it just the same

For in your eyes I see myself

Unashamed of who I am

And happily in love

Our tummies full, we stood there

Standing by your car, alive

Exchanging love with wondrous tokens

Caught up in the moment

No idea of passing time

You opened up your moonroof to

The gathering of the clouds and rain

I swore I saw the stars up there

And laughed inside as I realized

They were only in your eyes

We watched Twin Peaks and fell asleep

You left for work on time again

At times I think that I'm still dreaming

But I keep waking every morning

To look into your starlit eyes

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DRIPPING TIME

Every moment that we spend together

Feels as if it should last forever

Every rising of the sun

Shines on the roads that I have run

But time passes by so very quickly

The days fly by like sand in sieves

This time that we have spent together

Is water dripping from the leaves

I see your face, you're in my sight

The window pane reflects our light

A love so strong as ours has been

Could never leave the world unseen

But time passes by so very quickly

The months fly by like sand in sieves

This time that we will spend together

Is water dripping from the leaves

But if we're dripping into time

I'll be the droplet joining you

Reflecting sunlight on the leaves

The years fly by like sand in sieves

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PENNSYLVANIA STINKS

This is dedicated to a special,

former coworker, who moved away.

Not oft' enough have I said hello

The years have passed without a sound

Once I took calls and here I remain

Computer fans blowing hot air all around

Happy and faithful and stubbornly set

To go to the folks that I've never met

Pennsylvania stinks, it's full of nice air

And grass and of love and whatever is there

Yet, I cannot deny I'm happy for you

With parents so nice I'd wanna go too

And surely they helped you become who you are

So I guess you should go even though it is far

Remember us always, especially your Geek

At times I am humble, but no longer meek

I will seek you out if you do not write

But I know that you will 'cause you do what is right

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FEAR

The alarm went off this morning at five

I awoke, saw the red and blue on your face

Did you notice the colours mix as those in your car?

You car will take you to your race.

You asked me if I wanted you to come back 'fore you left

I said yes, of course you know that I do

You showered so quickly, you kissed me good morning

The sound of you leaving was the next thing I knew

As soon as your car had faded away

I noticed the time was now 6 o'clock

I knew that this evening I'd see you again

But my spirit was shaken; my heart, molten rock

The tears began flowing as if I'd seen pain

The room became cold with the dampness of rain

I began trembling even though you were near

I took to the couch because you weren't here

6:30 was here and still sleep wouldn't come

So I've written these words which almost are done

I told myself you'd be a-ok

But still this fear had invaded my day

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PAWN REBORN

For years I was a lonely pawn

Scared and shaking in the cold

I held on tight to silken threads

As I somehow fought the mold

The threads were from a sunlit sky

The grass was wet beneath my feet

I struggled so and willed to die

Until I rose within the heat

I wasn't hoping to have everything

I was just trying to stand on my own

The sunlight was shining on me all along

Now I have it all, I'm on my way home

I look at you sleeping

I feel as if I've been reborn

What happened to the years I lost

I stand with you in rows of corn

No one had to teach me love

It was in me all along

Loving you gives me an ear

To understand my loving song

My body stood tall, my mind all but cleared

The cobwebs had all just about disappeared

The threads I held on to had led me back home

Where love took its roots on every bone

Life began flowing in the here and the now

I play in the waters of laughter and sorrow

Striving to better the person I am

I look to the present, forgetting tomorrow

I wasn't hoping to have everything

I was just trying to stand on my own

The sunlight was shining on me all along

Now I have it all, I'm on my way home

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THE PLACE

I sit here firmly rooted

In my dreams of silver tones

Soon you'll be inside this place

Where the love and laughter grows

Outside is heavy falling snow

Inside are beams of newborn rays

Sunshine at its finest summit

Forgetting all the cloudy days

Sadness sometimes tries to visit

Softly knocking at the door

But when invited doesn't enter

Walks away on sandy shores

Could not escape the fiery rain

Would not accept the affliction of pain

Outrunning the evil can cost more than life

So I turned around to face gleaming knife

Feel the strength

Of the years that I've survived

When you hold me in this place

Know the way I've been revived

I fell in love within my soul

Found what it's like for me to be whole

Then you came along and offered your hand

I didn't need it but took it to stand

Happiness often overtakes me

Aptly knocking at the door

When invited enters gladly

Walks away in search of more

Outside is heavy falling snow

Night cascades without its stars

But here within our lovely place

Is a salve to heal the scars

Soon you'll be inside this place

Where the love and laughter grows

Still I sit here, firmly rooted

In my dreams of silver tones

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RECTITUDE

The other night you gave me truth

You know I value honesty

Within the fog I sought to listen

I revel in your valiancy

You may have thought that I'd storm out

In high dudgeon, in a huff

But in the dark, you humbled me

Just when I'd thought I'd had enough

You weren't the one to make me slip

But you were there, a steady hand

In your eyes I see forever

My finest dream, I didn't plan

I sit here now, I'm wondering

If you're real or illusory

But I know you're real, I've got your picture

And I've felt your hands, your eyes on me

The other night you showed concern

You knew I needed honesty

Within the fog I knew to listen

I revel in your love for me

And return it.

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GELATINOUS BONDING

I woke this morning to rays of light

They lit my face and broke the night

My jaw still sore, but not a care

I recalled how you were there

Taking care of me in time of need

You'd bend to my will as if a reed

So thin and limber but full of grace

I prayed for the worry to leave your face

For you I've made some cherry Jello

Don't worry, dear, it's red, not yellow!

Red is good 'cause it's not pee

It stands for love, that's you and me!

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SUPER BALL

Yanno, I thought I loved a million different people

And every time I fell, I picked myself back up

Every person that I know has had a love or two

But very very few have found a love like you

Each and every day, I find I wake up happy

I look out at the sun light shining on your face

The sparkle in your eyes, it tells me how you love me

And every night when the lights go out I'm where I wanna be

You are the Super Ball of superballs to me

The bounciest and coolest ball, made from a rubber tree

I bounce with you and all your joy throughout the world at large

Yeah, oh can't you feel it?

We're bouncin' in between the stars

Just listen to the falling snow, or even pouring rain

The sunlight shining through the clouds rejuvenates the sane

I wonder where you could have come from, oozing that appeal

Tell me the world I'm in is anything but real

And I'll believe it 'cause

You are the Super Ball of superballs to me

The bounciest and coolest ball, made from a rubber tree

I bounce with you and all your joy throughout the world at large

Yeah, oh baby, can't you feel it?

We're bouncin' in between the stars

Bouncin' in between the stars

Bouncin' here beneath the star

Yeah, you and me, the super balls

We got it all

The Super Ball

Upon our Christmas Tree

Yeah you and me

Twirling on our Christmas Tree

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PAST RELATIONS

I review my words last year

And years before, I feel so dumb

But all has happened for a reason

As I know this, I succumb

I understand more than you know

I remember all I did

I remember all I was

And understand the life I've lived

You tried to hit me though I stopped you

I found out about your lies

No more would I read your notes

We never could see eye to eye

You came up drunk, insulted me

I won't accept that from anyone

I guess you're happy now, it's great

You finally found the right someone

We met in school and had a fling

We were confused, we overcame

For one whole year we missed the fun

But now we're glad we're friends again

A friend brought you into my life

But your head was full of dread

I couldn't fall in love with you

So I let you go instead

I thought I loved you way back when

And when I finally fell for real

You simply could not give it back

Now we're friends; the wounds do heal

My heart was longing for a soul

Who needed me, but in you came

You took away a friend of mine

And turned into only pain

You never called me back you know

So I called you and said goodbye

My heart so ached for what it lacked

For a time I thought I'd die

Then at last I noticed you

But you played me for a fool

I went along at every turn

I wept my tears and hated you

You used me and debased my soul

Never seeing me for me

I let you walk upon my back

Before I finally set me free

And then one day the cobwebs cleared

I found You above all else

I never realized how bad I'd been

Then at last I loved myself

And when I thought I'd never see

The daylight of a love so true

I went about my newfound ways

And wondered if it might be you

But somewhere deep inside I heard

The calls of someone else inside

We were falling deep in love

Love like this won't be denied

And now I wake up every morning

Knowing where I do belong

Everywhere I look is love

It permeates our every song

I reviewed my words last year

And years before, I felt so dumb

But all had happened so that I'd see

Just how special you are to me.

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AN AWESOME YEAR: 2005

This whole year has been a blur

Though little details are retrieved

For years I strayed before I found

That all my dreams can be believed

January bore me freedom new

I strove to find myself again

February drew a card

From the state in which I'd been

March brought joys beyond my dreams

First came notes from a guy unseen

Dante drove into my heart

For years, I know, we'll never part

April Fool's and two weeks later

Taken was my heart I knew

So strange it seemed that in this world

I'd love someone as much as you

In May we hiked and took our pictures

More and more I met your friends

I fell in love with all you do

I'd often pray it never ends

In June we left to go to Maine

I knew for sure you felt the same

When late one day we stood so tall

Up so high, we saw it all

July and August flew so fast

Soon we sought a nice apartment

I began to accept my past

And took it out of its compartment

September found us in our place

Somehow it felt so very right

We had our dinner on the floor

Late one awesome summer night

October fell around us as it will

So often has our time stood still

Yet everywhere the time was passing

And all this love feels everlasting

I stumbled at times by mid November

Thanksgiving was a time of awe

At times I couldn't help but remember

All the good things in my Ma

Despite a mouth so full of pain

I saw in you a wondrous soul

December fixed me just in time

To enjoy the ways of old

Here I am, so very blessed

My life has got to be the best!

All the critters, you and Kitty

Our first Christmas, a tree so pretty!

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THE DAY AFTER CHRISTMAS

Don't ask... it just happened to fly out of my fingertips!

It was the day after Christmas and all through the house

Not a creature was stirring except for a mouse

He poked little whiskers around his mouse-hole

Saw the coast clear and went to the bowl

Alas it was empty but he felt no disdain

He scampered across the floor to the train

Crumbs were a-plenty where the children had sat

Playing for hours - the mouse would be fat!

He munched and he munched until he heard stirring

And the sound of a cat a-starting its purring

Away he scrambled back to his mouse-hole

With a fat little tummy, away he would go

The people arose from out their warm bed

Followed the cat, she wants to be fed

The tree needs some water, the critters some seed

Unaware that the kids had done a good deed

In the mouse-hole the mouse lay all happy

And when it awoke, it felt oh-so-snappy!

Out from the hole it flew without care

The cat barely saw it appear from thin air

But next thing they knew, cat and mouse became friends

Not every mouse comes to know a bad end

It joined in the family with much squeaky joy

And gave inspiration to the nice girl and boy

One day later on the kids would grow up

And emblazoned across each one of their cups

Is the Rainbow Bridge poem and right at the rim

Is each of their names and then, DVM.

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2005 is a year that holds particular shine in my memory.

It started out with me getting drunk on New Year’s even and New Year’s Day and dancing myself into an exhaustion I’d never known before.

When I recuperated from that, I decided that I didn’t want to be a drunk, so I continued the counselling I’d started just a month earlier, swore off relationships, did some heavy soul-searching, and got my driver’s license. Things were going great. I felt whole for the first time in my life. Completely independent.

Then I accidentally met someone through Yahoo! personals, and my life changed forever.

As our relationship advanced, my heart told me he was the one. I ignored it at first, but every time I tried to argue with myself, the guy would say or do something else and my heart would say “I told you so.” Finally I gave in. We moved in together.

My job had also gotten better. I had stopped caring that it sucked and changed my outlook. As a result, it somehow seemed easier to live through each would-be rotten day.

I loved 2005. It was pretty much my rebirth. I grew up.

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