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Poetry, 2007
WARM FUZZIES
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Warmth and love within my lap
Richard Marx within my ears
I've long felt sad before content
But don't be worried by my tears
I'm always worried by my fears
At times I want my solitude
Cherishing my time alone
But when he walks in through the door
I can't recall an empty home
Nor would I want an empty home
More and more I realize
How life can seem so very short
The years go by in the blink of an eye
There is no time for our love to abort
I pray our love will not abort
Soon our union will be proper
I place some value on this thing
Our lives are fine the way they are
But I still want to wear your ring
And you know my heart still loves to sing
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GIFT OF LIFE
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Beneath a stop sign late one night
Cold and lonely beneath moonlight
Left there huddled close together
Uncertain if they're there forever
Evil lives upon the earth
Far and wide extends its girth
But love prevails and takes its due
This is how life gave us you
I hear the cries, the frightened voices
But at this moment, mine rejoices
In this heart so warm and true
For I am glad life gave us you
Still anger hits me now and then
Thinking of what might have been
If someone hadn't found them there
If that someone didn't care
Stupidity lurks upon the earth
Far and wide extends its girth
But love prevails and takes its due
This how life gave us you
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TEA CUP EULOGY
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in memory of a beloved food-snatching rat
Life is like a day
So quickly does it pass us by
At first it seems so very long
And then it ends and we're surprised
I knew your time was very near
I knew one day you'd not be here
I blinked just once and you were gone
You leave us here to carry on
But I have memories, pictures too
Of all the reasons I love you
I only pray my memory stays
So that yours will never fade
I still see you drinking tea
Stealing food in front of me
Hiding morsels in your stash
Though I'd throw them in the trash
And when you slept you were serene
You ate it all and stayed so lean
I'll miss your hands and twitching nose
And the eyes which sparkled so
God, I know that You know best
And I know she wanted rest
Lift this burden off of me
And please make sure she gets her tea.
Preferably Earl Grey if you have it.
I'll miss you, Gracie. You are indeed a wondrous soul.
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PSD
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Whitney loved to PhotoShop
Painting many days away
Critters peeing on her clothes
As she made them sit and pose
Then a mom she knew from work
Gave her pictures of her kid
Cutest creature as could be
So guess what Whitney did with she?
PhotoShopping butterflies
Onto toes in dainty socks
Flowers 'round her head so fair
Floating in the very air...
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Kerry the Carefree Wussie.
I think I'll write a poem.
Kerry was a carefree soul
Who didn't like to play in snow
She stayed at home instead of working
Where the geeks would sure be lurking
And while she ate her steaming stew
What did all the brave souls do?
They drove their trucks right to her place
And at her door she had to face
A hungry group of weathered geeks
Who smelled her stew and came to eat
Tracking snow all over the floor
Eating the stew and asking for more
Got back in their trucks and left her alone
To read her books in her snow-covered home
Kerry was a carefree wussie
Yeah, she is a carefree wussie
HEY!! Everybody sing it!
Kerry is a Carefree Wussie
As a mere mortal maybe should be
Kerry is a Carefree Wussie
But she has stew and so should we!
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THE SPELL
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50 miles an hour and I
Feel the time just passing by
Just beginning my new life
Barely learning how to try
Only light from this setting sun
Has brought me so much endless wonder
Looking up into the skies
I can't deny the spell I'm under
Scraped-up knees because I stumbled
Lost a point because I fumbled
Misplaced notes and misplaced years
Learning how to use my ears
I skydive from a speeding jet
Spiral downward toward the earth
The world is spinning, I'm alive
I didn't die, for what it's worth
Only light from this setting sun
Has brought me joy and endless wonder
Looking up into the skies
I can't deny the spell I'm under
Where did she go, the girl I was?
I ponder this on morning tea
And miss the rat who stole my food
And wonder if she's missing me
And wonder if I'm ever able
To let things go, just let them cease
For sometimes even though I'm happy
I'm not so certain I've found my peace
Yet only light from this setting sun
Has brought me joy and endless wonder
Looking up into the skies
I can't deny the spell I'm under
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POLISHED
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Your eyes twinkle
They sparkle in the moonlight
So seldom giving up their hope
So often lending me your sight
You whisper
As the night falls gently down
"I love you"
And I know you'll always be around
My heart aches
For so vividly is my imagination
Demonstrative of its affection
Towards you, my brilliant jewel
The brightest star within the sky
A reflection of what is right
And deep within the endless night
I see
The shine and lustre of a wondrous metal
Polished to a brilliant gleam
Holding out its hand for me
So refined
Carved to my delight
So beautiful in every way
I awaken every day
To hold it in my hand
And love it deeply
Before it wears away
And the shine
It never seems to fade
As if a million cloths
Enshroud it
Keeping it aglow
I can't put you on a pedestal
Because you're true to form
And cast a look my way
Telling me that you will stay
We're getting older every day
Eighty years are as a heartbeat
And I know
The rings we'll wear mean nothing
And everything to us
At the same time
If only there was
More time
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THE PHOTOGRAPH
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My words often rhyme
Though I struggle to stop them
They come out
A myriad of birds flitting to and fro
Vying for attention
Struggling against the bars of an iron cage
Where might lends itself
To merciless restraint
And inconceivable tension
On my screen, a photograph
It tells a thousand words
Shows happiness
Where words may not suffice
But even the picture
Complete with vivid colouring
Perfect form, steady, true
Is of the moment
Just a tincture
It allows the observer
To grasp its essence
To join in
And live in the mind's eye
If but for a second
For the experience itself
Is lost forever
Known only to the artist -
The one who took the photo.
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expression, wandering
saxophone plays
a thumping beat
reminiscence
aural mist of wondrous hues
softspoken words of heartfelt feelings
forced tranquility
vocals searing
rising, falling
sighing pleasure
the power of expression
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CLOSURE
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thump, thump, thump
dance upon the rainy sky
wiggle those hips
exotic melodies arise
excitement in the air
screaming
rain pouring down
swirling mists of purple
sunlight
clouds depart
light, so bright
hymnal refrain
fall to earth
dance on rocks
embrace the trees
fall down laughing
lay in the mud
always moving
always dancing
end the chorus
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FOAM
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loose rubber straps
bind plastic to feet
squishing the snow
in a soft, crunchy beat
overhead soars
a picturesque bird
his is a sound
which I haven't heard
for inside each ear
Is foam I've pushed in
the sound cannot reach me
nor can the wind
the still of the air
is silent as stone
with no other senses
I may have been alone
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ANYTIME
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God, I think about
How time will fly and I
Think of our last days and how
One of us could die
Anytime
I can't bear to think of him
In either situation
Facing his own judgements
Or face in consternation
Anytime
And life's too short to say goodbye
Life's too short to shout and fight
Love someone with all your heart
And you'll see, you'll hold them tight
Anytime
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YOU AND ME
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I've a rock I lean upon
When I'm happy
When I'm down
And with the Light
Of the world upon me
I walk by your side
It's plain to see
That it's us, it's you and me
Our love is singing, soft and free
No place else I'd rather be
Than here with you, it's you and me
There are times I play at night
Absorbed within a place so dark
I regress
A moment lost in simple sadness
And then I'm back together
I look across the fields of green
Sunlight hits your face, I see
That it's us, it's you and me
Our love is singing, soft and free
No place else I'd rather be
Than here with you, it's you and me
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WHO WE ARE
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Look what has happened
I was a geek without purpose
A heart without love
A soul without cause
Like waves in the sea
You crept alongside
Rocking my boat
So gently; you love
I knew who I was
Now I'm learning
Who we are
And who I am with you
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STRENGTH
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They tell me not to worry but
I see it every day
I feel the possibilities
Weighing heavy in my heart
We're young for now but anything
Can happen to us any day
Deny it all, we never know
God knows how much I once had suffered
Only He could know my heart
He knows the strength so deep inside
He knows my limits and He knows my stride
And I know He'll be there all my life
Regardless of what is thrown at us
All throughout our joy and pain
I cry inside for all I've gained
For all I've got could soon be lost
I try enjoying all I have
Memorizing all these feelings
I savour all the special moments
In case it all should end some day
And I'm left with memories
The scent of him upon my pillow
Bringing back the tears of joy
Feeding cats and rats and lizards
Before we headed off to work
Hamsters hanging from their bars
Taking pictures from our vistas
Walking hand-in-hand by lakes
And then I wake up every morning
He's still lying by my side
God only knows the tears I've cried
They say you don't know what you've got
But God, I know, I won't let go
My heart breaks nearly every day
God, I know, I've got to know
The scent of him upon my pillow
Lending me these tears of joy
Feeding cats and crickets and lizards
Before we're heading off to work
Watching hamsters on their bars
Climbing mountains with his love
Walking hand-in-hand by lakes
Every single awesome day
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SHAKING
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I feel these words screaming
Beating their wings
Against bars of a cage
Shaking and trembling
Cold in their prison
A beam of light the only warmth
But it's all futile
To scream out their meanings
To give them free rein
It would take years
For words can't express
The feelings inside
Can't tell of the love
That lives inside my very essence
The very core of my existence
You've touched me
Deep inside
You've touched my heart
With an understanding hand
I've loved some things
But these tears in my eyes
Are exasperated waters
Dammed up over this inexpression
Of my love for you
My husband
And partner for life
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IN THE USA
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Driving through the countryside
Seen some desert, sand dunes, rock
Long ago drawn by the natives
Glyphs a type of histry clock
Lizards all across the land
Ground squirrels, cactus, chipmunks too
Castles wanted us to eat them
What were we supposed to do
Eating slyders all day long
Wading beaches in the mud
Shells worn down by crashing waves
In my mind an awesome thud
Rounding corners, twists and turns
Playing in the sands of time
Painting land with pots of sulphur
Waiting for another time
Here in the USA
Rains so scarce, my eyes so blind
Heat upon my shoulders bare
Sun so bright, it hurt my eyes
Prairies sprawled to who knows where
Ugly butts the antelope
Gently stared; we passed them by
Snapping pictures, memories
Still at night I had to cry
Man-made lakes from man-made dreams
Coloured falls brought down the day
Bridges grand and streams of green
Canyons took our breath away
We saw cars, yeah, lots of cars
And some things you might think strange
We saw bears and we saw many
Bison roaming in the range
We call the USA
Rainbows, lightning, faces carved
Such a small world with our wheels
A palace built of corn and shops
Never sure of what was real
And through it all my stomach turned
To wistful thoughts of our return
Back to our home in mountains green
Where my true love had married me
In the USA
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LIST
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In my list
Your name is gone
I'd left it there for years
In hopes you'd be my friend again
And you never were
But the other night when you IM'ed
I felt my irritation rise
Suspicion lingered at the keys
And I heard the door that I'd left open
Close upon your baby eyes
I never fully understood your stance
Never saw why I'm the one
That forgave, but not forgiven
Stood so tall despite it all
When you gave up on me
I walked away, though I looked back
Like a fool, I prayed one day
You'd see the friend you had in me
And return the loyalty
Before it all went sour
Now, I miss that friendship
Miss it more than words can say
The past is over, my wounds have healed
But I've not forgotten what you've done
Or what you might still do
So I wipe your memory
From the tears upon my cheeks
And wish that friend I'd loved so much
Had been for real
And not some fickle kid
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BITS AND PIECES
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Bits and pieces
Memories
Glistening like shards
Misted with water
My tears
long forgotten
In a sea of misery
That dried two years ago
Left behind the salt
When my scars rip open
The salt is there
It stings and cleanses
An antiseptic
And in my heart
There coexists
A love more pure than anything
That I've ever known in this tiny world
And the anguish I still suffer
When the memories
Surface once again
I once was told
It comes out when stable
And I've known stability
Since you came along
I gave up trying to understand
Every little thing I feel
My skin still tears
And I still hear
The heartbeats of a million people
All of which fit in my hand
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WONDER
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Volcano erupted
Emotions gone astray
The stresses of a year
Softly blown away
I sat in the grasses
I asked myself questions
Is happiness there
I wondered
Then I shut my eyes
Sought out my fears
The photographs and memories
The tokens of two years
I sat in the grasses
I thought of my life
Should I be sad
I wondered
Yet emotions remained
So I sought out their reason
Why they were there
Why now is their season
I sat in the grass
I thought of old words
Can I find me again
I wondered
Now you hold me close
Your love on my lips
Your eyes full of starlight
Your hands on my hips
I hold you so tight
I know what I've got
Did I ever forget?
I wonder
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THE LADY
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I've seen you thrice before
Sister of a friend
So much her twin and yet so different
In spirit; I amend
With certain grace, you held your head
And cried upon the words you said
Emotions captured in your eyes
So plain revealed, with no disguise
I did not notice 'til the pictures
How photogenic you would be
With every one my heart stood still
As your soul, I'd plainly see
I do not know if motherhood
Is what caused this graceful gaze
I could shoot just anything
But you shine through the wedding haze
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ALREADY THERE
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dedicated to J
You've been my friend for what seems like forever
I've known you since I moved here
You move away in body, but not in spirit
This morning full of new beginnings
You're in my heart and thoughts today
I see you off with prayer and love
As my life continues here
In this life I've chosen well
For if you love someone
Even when they're hours away
Aren't you already there in spirit
Even if your body stays?
I've learned in life that moments pass
So quickly are we separated
Each moment is to be cherished
Each memory preserved
None can take away the things we've shared
And in the future we'll share more
For this is the beginning
Of the rest of our lives
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SHOWER
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To real inspiration
A poet I once was
Full of anger raging
Tossing spray upon the rocks
Forcing every boat to splinters
One small ship survived the wreckage
Her masts were broken, still she sailed
A ghost upon horizon's sky
A memory of what could be
I took you then, into my heart
I told you then that you could stay
Awareness fades but in my heart
The promise of another day
Sail into the waterfall
Wash away the fading stains
Of tears that fell so heavily
Against restraining window panes
My heart's still open to your call
I love you deeper than before
You'll never leave me here alone
I won't become what I abhor
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THE LAWN OF IS
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for Erin P.C.
Once there was a Lawn of IS
It grew while Erin was away
Soon the blades would reach the sky
Waiting to be mowed some day
'Twas left alone so kept on growing
Grew so long that it fell over
Someone cut it then but still
Its little roots dug even lower
And the office pleas:
Erin, Erin, please come back!
This grass has rooted in the keys!
It will consume the whole office
Come back and mow the Lawn of IS!!
(welcome back)
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CRUNCHY
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Crunchy shells surrounding me
A blanket whispering softly
Bean burritos set before
My eyes of hunger, they want more
Got it all yet still I fall
I can hear the silent call
Never happy, satisfied
Never mind how much I've tried
Then a look, a soft embrace
The warmth dries up my tear-stained face
Understanding of my heart
Nothing tears my love apart
You know how everybody thinks
You've gotta be the one that fits
Expectations, delegations
Insanely gross insinuations
Leads me to incarceration
Armed with wisdom held at bay
In this world we all must stay
Until the hour of release
When our souls are given peace
Understanding follows me
I can't forget the things I see
Doesn't really help me though
All this knowing what I know
And then I see how people think
I've gotta be the one that fits
Fermentation, insurrection
Concession tailed by resignation
Pro tempore renunciation
The cycle never seems to end
Yet the rules have known to bend
To the wishes of the damned
I remember where I am
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HARVEST
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The words cascade from fingertips
They paint fermented pictures on the seasoned canvas
The colours blend so eagerly
By means of these electric brushes
Hairs astray are wiped from eyes
Glistening beads of sweat on hands
Working hard upon the keys
Painting distant but familiar lands
I feel you watching
I feel you smiling
I feel you loving me
The words themselves can harvest pain
Drudge it up, a willing past
Wring out the moisture from its bandage
And beat it 'til it dies at last
Was I soul-searching, was I
Looking for a way to sleep
Where does my anger go when I
Find myself in love so deep
When my eyes are glazing over
I feel your arm supporting me
If I fall I know you'll catch me
Pull me upright, help me see
I see you watching
I see you smiling
I see you loving me
The words themselves can harvest pain
Drudge it up, a willing past
Wring out the moisture from its bandage
And beat it 'til it dies at last
I feel you watching
I feel you smiling
I feel you wanting
Touching, holding, loving me
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BUBBLE BATH
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Sat within a pool of oil
Raindrops splashing on my knees
Air of silence in my ears
Scent of peach surrounding me
My fingers work to ease the pain
Tension slowly dissipates
Dancing in the waters still
I cannot seem to concentrate
I see the bluish tinge alight
Streaming from my fingertips
My mind is numb with nothingness
Soap is trickling off my lips
Is this the last of what I had
That place where sense was real to me
I can't recall just how I saw
It fades away, a memory
Contentment falls around me now
A haze that blocks my other world
I sometimes miss the odd sensations
Even though I'd not return
As I grow into this shell
I'm terrified of being me
Shall I mourn for who I was
Or for the one I'm going to be
I miss the energy, the lights, the stars
Others missed these subtleties
I remember all that I have seen
But all I've seen are memories
The passion's gone, there's little left
Of everything I once had made
I hear the music, try to dance
But this song's already played
Who am I now
I'm stronger than I was before
Content with life
Still I miss me and my lore
Visualize the stars again
See them swirling, universe
Feel the place I once belonged
Before I moved away
Before he came my way
Before I put it all away
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TOKEN
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Little things like a slip of paper
Donations on it, just a caper
Training me for just a while
On his face a growing smile
He says he's proud of me
In his face I see his love
Appreciation touches us
A token sent from up above
How many times have I felt happy
Watching him just watching me
The playful sounds that we both make
When we're scarcely half awake
And when I anger, sheer frustration
Overriding all his fears is me
I never doubt that he'll be there
When I find I cannot see
He says he's proud of me
In his face I see his love
Appreciation touches us
A token sent from up above
I hope he knows I'm proud of him
And in my face he'll see my love
Every time he's drawng near
A token sent from up above
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RUFFLED FUR
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Whiskers twitch, her fur ruffs up
She understands why she can't stay
Taunts her senior with her claws
Hissing, spitting anyway
Muscles clench beneath soft fur
Silent cries of agony
Unaccepting of herself
Curling up, she starts to dream
A game of cat and mouse ensues
Thomas seems to know it all
But Jerry's spirit is rambunctious
And gets away as Tom plays ball
Decision made, she wakes and stretches
Licks her paws with great precision
She knows herself and knows her strength
Despite the laughs and slight derision
The sulky kitty sniffs her tea
Curling up into a ball
Wonders what is up ahead
No longer worried she may fall
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SYNE LANGUAGE
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in memory of Dan Fogelberg
may his music live on
I listen to your songs again
Recollecting days gone past
Feeling movement in my heart
As it spills these words at last
Beating out the rhythm still
Even though you couldn't stay
Miming thoughts and wisdom now
You sculpted words that pave our way
You may be gone but your words live on
"A run for the roses so red"
The spirit endeavors to serve while it's here
Yours just happened to run on ahead
So I join in the dance
An old lang syne, a distant land
I offer my words as a humble refrain
To the Leader of the Band
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2007 was a mixture of love and grief. We adopted Sinclair, and I was smitten by the fuzzy little kitten. We were warned of a deformity he might have, but he proved everyone wrong about his potential handicap.
Shortly after, I lost my beloved pet rat, Gracie.
Then Dale and I married.
We went on a long vacation across the U.S. and saw all kinds of things. I wrote a song on the way home, which started out as a poem: “In The U.S.A.”
The rest of the year included my best friend moving away, a few colleagues finding new jobs, the death of singer, Dan Fogelberg, and a lot of love surrounding me. I spent a lot of time terrified that my good fortune would be taken from me, because it seemed I had way too much while others had so little.
Despite my job going well enough, I also knew inside that I was almost ready for a change. I felt something snap inside, a little piece of me finishing some sort of growth process.
But I stayed put.