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Poetry, 1991-1997
YESTERDAY WAS YESTERDAY
41991000000 - ©1991 WLL
As I sit looking out a window
Staring at a lonely tree
I think I see a face that I know
Staring right back at me
But suddenly I realize
That the face I think I see
Is nothing more than something called
Distant Memories
Yesterday was yesterday, today is today
Got to find a peace of mind, got to get away
Yesterday was yesterday, today is today
Got to get out of this maze, I've got to find a way
If you know a way out
Please don't hesitate
To tell me how to get away
From this awful thing called Hate
For I fear that if I don't
Make such an escape
All the dreams and aspirations
That I have will fade
and...
Yesterday was yesterday, today is today
Got to find a peace of mind, got to get away
Yesterday was yesterday, today is today
Got to get out of this maze, I've got to find a way!
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EAVESDROPPINGS
41993082751- ©1993 WLL
I went out shopping
For clothes one day
Found myself eavesdropping
But my mother said "Hey!
"Don't eavesdrop
On people like that;
You just hop
right onto that BAT!"
So on I hopped
(The bus I mean)
Hardly even shopped,
If you know what I mean!
I bought a skirt
And a body-suit,
And some kind of shirt
With holes to look through!
When I got home
That very same day,
I went out alone
And heard someone say,
"Do you see that?
The girl with the skirt?
She has no hat,
But I love her shirt!"
This pleased me a lot,
And I sure wasn't lost,
For that shirt that I'd bought
Was at a low cost!
So remember this,
The next time you shop,
And stick to your list,
And never eavesdrop!
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NO GOING BACK
41993111251- ©1993 WLL
Tuning out
Is how I've been
Depression is gone
Where to begin?
I could say hi
But I will not
I could say good-bye
But it isn't my thought.
Instead I'd like to say
I'll stay right where I am
Being happy is how I'd like to be
And for this, I'll take a stand
Beware, all of you
Who want to take me back
I will not go, I'll fight you off
Come near me, and I'll attack!
There's something awful out there
And it's waiting for me to return
But I will fight against it
'Cause I've already had my turn!
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LEARN TO TRY
41993111622- ©1993 WLL
Anger and love
Are all around you
Open your eyes
And look around you
Choose between them
Before you die
Learn to see them
And learn to try
Learn to try, learn to try
Open your eyes, break the tie
Learn to try, learn to try
It's so easy to see them
Please don't give up, won't you just try
When you're at home
Or out on the street
When you're at school
Just stand on your feet
'Cause people will know
When you do what you can
And people respect
Those who stand like a man
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WHEN I LEAVE YOU TONIGHT
41993111623- ©1993 WLL
Time to write another song
Never knew how to get along
Stop and think; try to get a sense of it all
Stop it right now, stop wanting to stall
I know I shouldn't think
You would be there for me
I know I shouldn't care
When you find your time to flee
But it hurts me to see you
Every time I turn around
And there you are before me
I know it's wrong to be in love with you
Why, oh why, must I be so sincere
When all you do is play your game?
You never fear
When I leave you tonight
It will be the last time
I know it's not the first time
But it surely is the last time
And when I leave you, what will you do?
Will you cry because you love me?
Or because you've lost that power over me?
Will you cry at all?
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KILLER DEMON
41994022551- ©1994 WLL
I don't know what to say
'Cause my thoughts are in my way
Words are forming in my brain
But soon after they will be slain
By some Killer that hurts my mind
I ask it to leave the pain behind
The Killer laughs, and tells me to die
But I say I will not, and he asks me why
I'm silent for a moment, thinking my thoughts
I tell him I plan to see that he rots.
But the Killer, who says he's smarter than I
Says to me, "You'll surely die."
For some reason unknown, I am not afraid
I've got his hand, his cards have been played
He's now more vulnerable than ever before
I've got him trapped in the Earth's inner core
So bye-bye demon, go rot in your Hell
You thought I was yours, but I never fell
I'll refuse you, time after time
I will not commit such a terrible crime.
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ESSAYS
41994050001- ©1994 WLL
There is an English teacher that I know
I used to think he was my foe
But now I see he's not so mean
Beneath the act which I have seen
You see, my reader, I am bad
Softly spoken, seldom mad
But once I'm ticked, then you will know
There's just one place that you can go
I know I don't scare you, which I don't intend
This is the warning I'd wanted to send:
"Don't you dare ask me to speak...
'Cause I'm not humble, and I'm not meek!"
I'm sure you know this truth right now,
And if you don't, I don't see how.
But I forgive you, and now I rest;
I know I've done my very best.
I wish you luck in the coming school year,
And plenty of joy, and plenty of cheer.
I hate you no more, so my essay is done,
And I must admit that I thought it was fun.
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TABLE RESERVATIONS
41994092611- ©1994 WLL
Someone comes to the table I'm sitting at
And tells me it's reserved for someone else.
Then I asked why she thought it was,
Since I sit here or at the table next to me.
"It's reserved, for the four of us,"
She answers me.
"But I usually sit here,"
I told her, quietly.
Finally, this seemingly polite person
Agreed with her friends to leave.
After they had left me though,
I was just about to grieve.
"Why is a table so damned important?"
I was asking myself, now caught in a gloomy day.
Even though I told the truth,
Why did it matter, anyway?
Yet, I hate to feel pushed around,
So the evil in me remains on the defensive side.
And if I'm pushed 'til I'm teetering on the edge,
I'll be damned if I haven't tried.
If you try to break my spirit
(It doesn't matter how low you go),
The horse will kick, the cat will scratch,
And the snake will bite 'til you let go,
Unless you kill me first.
I feel it so little to ask
That I be left alone.
But even this I cannot have,
For some reason to me unknown.
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FREE
41995012051- ©1995 WLL
Language comes from nowhere
I am alone no more
Until a storm inside my head
Decides to close the door.
Confusion results
Because of this storm.
I'm against fitting in
To Society's norm.
But a Voice
-And a great Voice at that-
Tells me to think
And not to react.
So when something upsets
The balance inside me,
I will not feel trapped
'Cause I know that I'm free.
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FLAT ON MY BACK
41995051511- ©1995 WLL
No inspiration
Comes into my head.
Thoughts are all blank;
Perhaps they are dead.
Flat on my back
I stare at the sky.
Laughing behind me--
I don't wonder why.
That morning was gray;
That morning was bad.
Awful's the word
For the day that I had!
It all started out
With a buzz in my ear.
My clock had gone off--
Too late, I must fear!
I managed to eat
A hasty breakfast.
I ran out the door
Almost missing the bus!
Then I arrived
At Yourtown High School.
I walked very fast;
I pushed my way through!
As I got closer
To the stairs of concrete
I tried to go up,
But out went my feet!
For how little I knew--
There was ice up ahead!
And before I could stop it,
The ice was my bed!
So, flat on my back,
I stared at the sky...
Anger arose
At the laughter behind!
I angrily rose
And tried once again.
I held on to the rail
And tried to go in.
But, alas, all that work
Was for nothing; I was shocked!
That stupid door knob
Was nothing but LOCKED!!
I slipped my way down
But held onto my ground.
I heard them all laughing--
I would not turn around!
But now that it's over,
And my embarrassment subsided,
I laugh at myself--
'Cause that I've decided!!!
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THOUGHTS INTO IMAGES
41997092651 - ©1997 WLL
Thoughts into Image,
Image into Thought;
Feelings into Words,
Words that are caught;
Unspeakable knowledge
Of the Future to come;
Having the Memories
Of Events that are done.
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These are all grouped together because I lost most of my poetry during this timeframe. I found some of it on bits of paper, etc, with vague dates such as “c 1991” hence the date code being incomplete.
There is a marked element of youth in these.