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Poetry, 1998
CAN'T IT BE LIKE BEFORE
41998020873 - ©1998 WLL
I loved you with all my heart
For so many years
You turned me away with a single wave of your hand
And made my eyes fill with tears
You'd sing to me with a voice
That chilled me to the bone
I thought I'd never, ever be--
I'd never be all alone
But now I am, and you're not here
I'm lying here without you
I'm missing you with such an emptiness
Aren't you feeling it, too?
Can we be apart forever more
Without each other
Side by side, arm in arm
Can't it be like before?
You'd put me to sleep
With your tender words
Emotions ran deep
In the voice that I heard
But now you are gone
And I am alone
I need you here with me
I need you at home
Can we be apart forever more
Without each other
Side by side, arm in arm
Can't it be like before?
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THOUGHTS OF ONE
41998042711 - ©1998 WLL
My life was dark with endless gray
Until the day I met you
You came to me from a different place
And left me feeling blue.
Yet you were there for that one year
When my life was in total ruin.
You sparked my mind and showed me a way --
How I wish I knew what you're doing!
That Link we share, I can't forget
Even now I feel the hum
As our minds touch, and you are there
And the thoughts we share are One.
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SHADOWS
41998042712 - ©1998 WLL
In the shadows
A figure looms ahead.
Waiting for a victim
So he may make them dead.
He calls out to the passerby
Of which there aren't too few
With words of promise and of praise
And dreams that will come true.
But when on stops and turns around,
His body turns to stone.
The mind and soul depart from him,
And he is left alone.
For what is a person, if not himself?
To yourself and to God, be true.
Shake the dust from your feet and leave it behind,
Or the pillar of salt will be you.
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THE SOUL'S ESSENCE
41998042823 - ©1998 WLL
Mimicking words that I've heard before
I feel that time is running out on me
Yet somehow I'll live in the lost sands of time
And I will feel so totally free.
Ideas will be floating within my own soul
Coming from the Collective, they'll be pure and true.
No words to describe them, just thoughts, that is all
All thoughts, past and present, like those that I knew.
Freedom is Thought, and Thought is Belief
In the One who created us, right from the Start.
I look forward to Knowing so much more than I do,
But I know that the Knowledge is here in my heart.
I just need to listen, and it's there.
Speaking to me from the Essence of my Soul
That part that Knows subconsciously what's out there,
The part that makes me whole.
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UNTIL THE END OF THE WORLD
41998060111 - ©1998 WLL
Tell me that it's not over
Tell me it's not too late
Tell me that you'll love me forever
Tell me that you'll wait
If I hold you now
Will you stay with me
Until the end of time
Baby, tell me please
When the rivers run uphill
And trees turn into blue
When the sky begins to darken
All I'll want is you
Do you feel the same
Would you feel the pain
If we were apart for just one day
Baby, tell me that you'll stay
When the ocean dries completely
And the mountains fall apart
When the sea begins to redden
Will you give me all your heart
Do you feel the same
Would you feel the pain
If we were apart for just one day
Baby, tell me that you'll stay
I know life won't be easy
Every day can be a chore
But with you at my side
And I at yours...
Until the end of the world
I'll be forever yours
And you'll be in my heart
Way past forever more
Until the end of the world...
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OUR LOVE IS FOREVER
41998060112 - ©1998 WLL
Though we are far apart
My love for you has grown
They tell me it's too late
But there's something I've been shown
Our love will be forever
It will grow forever
It will bloom a thousand years from now
And survive a thousand more
I sit alone at night
Thinking only of you
And what we used to have
I know you feel it too
One day we'll find one another again
And only death will keep us apart
Like it did so many times before
But it cannot separate our hearts
Our love will be forever
Time will make it so
A thousand years from now
Plus a million more
Can we wait so long
For our love to come again
Though it exists in the heavens
Will it exist on this new world?
Or will it take much longer
For us to come together
Will our souls be united
When death comes once again?
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BEYOND TIME
41998060113 - ©1998 WLL
Sitting in the darkness
Of the shadows of my life
Watching out the windows
For any sign of life
Suddenly you're there
Helping me survive
You are my real inspiration
You help me live my life
I'm walking down the street
Memories haunt my mind
But if I turn around
You're not that far behind
With the billions of people
Living in this world
You find time to be with me
I could never forget you
Your name does not exist
Because you are everything
You exist in every tree
You even live in me
And when my life passes by
I know I'll have regrets
But walking beside me will be you
And I'll be so content
To worship you
Beyond the end of time
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ANOTHER TIME
41998070571 - ©1998 WLL
Sitting here thinking
Of what might have been
If I'd stayed with you
It would have been nice
Probably so good
I'd never leave you
I would have loved you
With all of my heart
And you'd have loved me
I have few regrets
About leaving you
But that's behind me.
It's ike Déjá Vú
When I think of you
I think you feel it, too
But our lives have gone
Onto separate paths
Though once intertwined.
Perhaps another time...
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SHOW ME
41998070611 - ©1998 WLL
What is this that I'm feeling
That I've felt so long
It's getting stronger everyday
And somehow doesn't feel wrong
I've never known Love
But I think I've known Hate
And I have witnessed Fear
And I know I'm no saint
But what I have here
In my heart, in my soul
Please show me how to love,
'Cause I don't know the role.
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WHERE DO WE BEGIN?
41998070612 - ©1998 WLL
You and I --
Well, where do we begin?
Fate brought us together
And will do so again.
For you and I, we are one--
Our souls are intertwined.
We have connections no one can break,
And you are on my mind.
And you'll love me forever,
The way that I'll love you.
Our hearts will bounce with joy,
And our souls and minds will, too.
Though skies will darken
And the heat will subside
As Cold descends upon the earth
And people die as others hide
We'll remain out in the open
Waiting for our lives to end
For though Life does keep us apart
Death will bring us together again.
And our souls will be as One.
I feel you with me now.
Though I am alone
And I can't wait until the day
When you and I are Home.
Perhaps it's too early
To think of what's ahead,
But I've been waiting way too long
In an empty bed.
And at night, when my soul
Journeys to far-off lands
Many places that I visit
I see us holding hands.
And we walk along a deserted beach
Under stars that we can't reach
Thinking to each other, without any words
No noises around, no chirping birds
Just you and me
Alone in some world
Exchanging our thoughts
That cannot be heard.
And our feelings of love
Are so very strong
They don't fade, but they grow
How could it be wrong?
Then we part ways
With one tender kiss
Remember me always
For it's you that I'll miss.
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CAN'T FORGET
41998070721 - ©1998 WLL
I call out to you--
Why don't you answer?
I need you so bad--
Why don't you answer?
I think of your face,
I send out my heart.
But I get no reply.
Why are we apart?
We were so close
Our souls were so tied.
But now we're apart
And as much as I've tried,
I can't forget you
But only hope to find you again.
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THE LINK
41998080161 - ©1998 WLL
I've felt your presence
For a while now
You've tried to communicate
But I don't know how
I haven't forgotten
How we first met
That very first Link
I couldn't forget
And now here we are
I am here, and you are there
Yet I just don't know --
I can't find you anywhere
I sense your presence even now
Though I do not know just how
But I can't hear what you'd like to say
Think a bit louder and I just may.
Fires are raging through the forests
Burning every living thing
Birds and animals are fleeing in vain
For nothing will stop Him from becoming King.
I'm not sure exactly why,
But lately I've been seeing you in everyone.
I feel as though you're watching me from afar,
But I don't know just where you are.
I feel the same as when we met
Whenever I think of you.
I Linked with you, and couldn't forget
I knew you'd felt it, too.
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IN GOD WE TRUST
41998080271 - ©1998 WLL
I've watched you grow
Throughout the years
And now I know
How to vanquish your fears
I watch your face
When you look up at me
And there's not a trace
Of what I could see
Innocence lost
Gone on a whim
The light in your eyes
Is becoming so dim
You were so sweet
When you were born
But the world was so wrong
And I was so torn
And then you grew up
And confirmed my worst fears
The world seeped into your life
And made your eyes fill with tears
Innocence lost
Gone on a whim
The light in your eyes
Is becoming so dim
'When you are older
Then you will understand
But for now, be content
To give me your hand'
I led you across
That crowded old street
Never knowing how fast
An old car could be
Then you were in my arms
For the very last time
How I'd hated God
When around rolled the dime
On the back were the leaves
But then on the bust
Were these simple words:
In God We Trust.
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THE DOOR
41998080272 - ©1998 WLL
Reddish lights and dimming rays
Come down on us, destroy our days
They fill our lives with dread
They destroy our daily bread
When they're gone, we will see
All that's left is you and me
All around us volcanoes erupt
Earthquakes are so very abrupt
Words won't matter and neither will thought
Your soul and mine will interlock
Once again, forever more
We'll be behind the great locked door
The lights are so very bright
It's always day, and never night
The sun does shimmer, oh, doesn't it shine?
And we are fortunate to be on the Vine
We won't be picked, I won't let us be
We'll remain here, forever free
Like we should forever more
We'll remain behind the door
Whispered words in my ear
Are loving words that I do hear
I whispered back, before we die
I love you too, and that's no lie
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SEPARATION
41998080273 - ©1998 WLL
There's a place not far from here
Where we could be together
But for some reason unknown to me
We are not with one another
I've watched young lovers holding hands
And remember how silly we had been
Believing so long that our love would last
Until our lives had decided to end
Forever seemed so short a time
But it lasted so much longer
We'd thought our love would never die
But would instead be ever stronger
Now here we are, away from each other
Each of us living a separate life
And I catch myself wondering what might have been
Had I remained your loving wife
Forever seemed so short a time
But it lasted so much longer
We'd thought our love would never die
But would instead be ever stronger
And here we are, parting our ways
Living a single life
Though I catch myself wondering what it would have been like
To have remained your loving wife
I have to admit that it's better this way
For now we are free yet once again
But how I wish you'd take a little paper
And perhaps write to me with your pen
And inscribe the envelope with the words
You managed to win my heart with before
How strange it seems to remember our marriage
When it's ended now in bitter divorce...
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US TWO ALONE
41998080641 - ©1998 WLL
Crimson skies loom above us
Darkness calls from far below
Here upon a ledge so high
We make a leap up towards the sky
Our bodies collide, and then we fall
Towards the dark and lonely pit
But as we hold each other tight
We find ourselves enwrapped in light
There is no speaking, no language to use
Thoughts of love are all there are
We look around us and see some things
Relevant to only kings
Lands of gold, fields of wheat
Fluffy clouds up in the sky
Seas of green and blue so clear
A forest full of squirrels and deer
The sun shines out for all to see
All around the golden clouds
The sky is bright with sun-lit blue
Lakes of waters that are true
While war goes waging on
And people are dying for themselves
Here we are in this world, alone
Waiting for lives beside our own.
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HOPEFUL DESTRUCTION
41998080642 - ©1998 WLL
The trees are scarred by useless signs
And poison seems to weep from grass
As other follow not really knowing
They're gazing in a looking-glass
Arrows shot within their sight
Seem to end their fears
Anger and hate all dissipate
But here within will lie their fears
For as a tree will grow around
Ass the nails that Man sticks in
The clouds will fade from all your skies
And let the sunshine in.
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INERTIA
41998090451 - ©1998 WLL
Stars envisioned in my mind
Encircling a distant world
Faces unknown appeared
To which I will be hurled.
At tremendous speed, like that of light,
My body will be thrown;
All thoughts erased, and then replaced
With none that are my own.
Smiles greet me, but I'm confused;
They tell me not to despair.
I felt alone, and so afraid,
But now I know They care.
Consumed by hunger, I am fed
By strong and powerful hands.
As I eat I will be shown
Many beautiful lands.
Then erupts the dreams I've had
For so many years
You came along and made me glad
And wiped away my tears.
And now you've gone, just disappeared
From all crevices of my mind
Though now and then, much like now, I turn,
And think you're not that far behind.
--Oh, but you are.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY PETER!
41998091151 - ©1998 WLL
You started out at age fourteen
And soon your voice was heard throughout
Few people knew your name at first
But they knew your voice without a doubt.
When you left that band of years
To go your separate ways
Your name would soon be known alone
And THAT began your days!
So, here you are with six albums so far
And you're only 54...
Your voice is great on the albums we've got,
But I think there's room for more!
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LONELY LEAF
41998092071 - ©1998 WLL
Alone on a driveway
Remaining so still
Is a dried-up brown leaf
In the early-morn' chill
Fragments of Illusion
Alight in my mind
Wavering in breezes
I never can find.
My mind becomes still
With thoughts that are blank
In the Dungeon of Chains
Or out on the Plank.
Alone in the wilderness
My animal side rages
So out of control
Like animals in cages
Calming myself
With soft, tranquil thoughts
I feel so alone
'Cause I'm all I've got
And then I remember
Something I'd seen
And Light shines upon me
And my soul becomes clean.
For alone on a driveway
Remaining so still
Was a dried-up brown leaf
In the early-morn' chill.
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MIMI MOUSE 1
41998100951 - ©1998 WLL
Many people think mice are bad
And when mice die, then some are glad
But, like all pets, Mimi was loved
And now she's happy in Heaven above.
Though her life was very short
She filled my life with love.
Now I'm empty without her
But glad that she's with God.
Two weeks ago, Mimi was ill.
Perhaps she was hot, or perhaps caught a chill.
Whatever the reason, she left me one day;
Whatever the reason, she went away.
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MIMI MOUSE 2
41998100952 - ©1998 WLL
Just one week ago today
I held in hand my little friend.
As she drew her very last breath,
I knew, for her, it was the end.
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THE FOREST
41998110171 - ©1998 WLL
Sitting in a forest
Lost in the sands of time
We think of past and future
And put it into rhyme.
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THE PATH
41998110172 - ©1998 WLL
Where we are heading
We may think we know
But where Life may take us
We know we must go.
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BEGINNINGS
41998120831 - ©1998 WLL
Beginnings are worthless
Since there's never an end.
Life is a garden
That I cannot tend.
The keys on the 'board
Are beautiful.
To touch them is greatness.
To play them is hard.
But I try anyway.
Several have said
To go with the flow.
Jump as they jump.
Go back to school.
Enjoy Life.
Be happy.
How can I do any of these?
I am myself, torn
Between two worlds.
I cannot jump when others jump,
If it makes me sick.
I cannot enjoy life,
When I feel like a pawn.
I fit into no mould known
As this world would like me to.
Instead, I'm stuck
And cannot break free.
I believed--
No, I actually almost believed --
That I could.
I gave it a shot,
A small one at that.
But it didn't do shit.
I'm still where I was,
Continuing to run,
Continuing to hide,
Dying inside,
Yet full of fire.
Conflicting emotions
That never will end.
Try as I might
My feelings remain.
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EMOTIONAL RISE
41998120832 - ©1998 WLL
Blankness resides inside my head.
Time to regroup my thoughts, I guess.
Felt as though I could get somewhere,
But my feet are heavy and won't move again.
Swirling around in a vast expanse
Are emotions I can't express.
Such a burden I carry and can't lift off
My shoulders of silk and a mind of sand.
To cry, to cry, how nice it feels
To pour out emotion with an uttered sigh.
And perhaps a whimper or even a moan
With a little voice on the bed where I lie.
How awesome it is, to be able to feel
Emotions of someone so far away
Even in a different time
His feelings come through to the present day
And reach out to my heart, to see if it listens.
It does, and cries with anguish for he who has lost--
He whose heart was breaking like mine
Though in a different way.
So I listen, and feel the power
Of words so true to the cause.
With every rise into the air
My poor little heart will follow him there.
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YOU DON'T FEEL IT
41998121371 - ©1998 WLL
I sit alone and think of you
I know that you cannot feel it, too
But in a distant universe
I know Life cannot be any worse
So, I sit alone and write and play
And think of the words that I want to say
And every note I know you'll hear
My words are whispered in your ear
Oh, I sit alone every night
I sit and wonder what it might be like
If you were to be with me
Oh, why can't I just make you see
If you were here in my heart
I know that we'd never be apart
Our lives would be so intertwined
And you know our lives would never die
But I sit alone and think of you
And I know that you do not feel it, too...
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THAT HAUNTING MELODY
41998122811 - ©1998 WLL
That haunting melody
Sometimes it feels so eerie
And when I play it
Sometimes my moods are weary
Weary
And when I listen to the sound
I feel as though He is around
And so am I...
That haunting Melody
Sticks in my head and won't let go
It tells me things that I should already know
Already know
And when I listen to the sound
I feel as though He is around
And so am I...
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I had gotten into the keyboard a bit more seriously towards the end of 1997 and during 1998. Some of my poems here not only reflect that with their content and rhythm, but were turned into songs as well.
I still play the melodies of a couple of them on my keyboard to this day:
Shadows
Until The End Of The World
Hopeful Destruction
That Haunting Melody
Exploration of a romance I never knew seems to be a recurring theme during 1998. Too, was reflection on life in general and the shadows that lurk behind every turn.